dawnnie

2009-07-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

21 Guns by Green Day

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath
away and you feel yourself
suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart
inside, you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I. ..

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the
spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken
glass and the hangover
doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to
last, you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I. ..

Did you try to live on your own?
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand to close to the fire?
Like a liar looking from
forgiveness from a stone
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has
died, you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I. ..

2009-05-09T13:51:00.002+08:00

Once again, another chapter of my life has ended. I've finally overcame the challenges at my workplace and found a new meaning to it! I feel like i've graduated out of something so amazing and new. You know i was reading through some of my older posts which i wrote but never posted. I realised what a journey it has been for me jsut these couple of months put together. Guess i'd really miss my workplace. It didn't help that they were sooo nice, bestowing me with so many presents and cards of their love and well wishes on my last day there! Even a fellow colleague who recently got his golden handshake and another who celebrated her birthday couldn't compare to the one they threw for me! And honestly, it was such a pleasant surprise! In fact, I had soo much more to thank them for... for my time there, for the things they taught me, for the care they showered over me, for the numerous lunch treats, for their help, for taking so much pain just trying to talk to me! Haha. I know i had be extremely unapproachable, especially when i first started out with that baggage of sad thoughts that eluded me already..

I actually felt reluctant to leave a workplace that i first hated but later grew to enjoy and love soo much! And all i can say is i've truly felt God's presence with me through it all. I'd never trade this experience for something else!

So.. guess once again, i'm back to unemployed. Ever since i started a countdown to this job, i've been thinking, what next? And the closest that stayed in my heart is my service area. Well. Come what may, all i can say is, its time to brace ourselves for some rocking change! Maybe not the ahem..barrack way, but i'd say i hope it might be time to do something more about it lah. We'll see.

2009-05-09T13:49:00.001+08:00

Written a week later:

Anyways, i've come to realise how really tough it is for me when it comes to farewells/changes esp when i've grown emotional towards it. I won't feel like crying nor like laughing at anything and everything. A kind of zombie-like behavior afflicts me for at least a week, if not more depending on how emotionally attached i am, until smth i can get excited about excites me again. I guess my response can be regarded as like a kind of blocking thing out feeling to prevent any more hurt/grievance? And this has been reoccurring since jc days. I remember how i really had a tough time getting on with school after bintan trip ended. I had a case of what we called ''post-bintan-sickness''. Like i knew a couple of us who really enjoyed ourselves suffered from it too. But my was: severe. I would ''cling'' to the memories and even to people who could just hv been on the same trip or would trigger some of those awesome moments to keep breathing! I craved for more. At the same time, i struggled between overcoming these feelings to focus on my studies and to stop being reliant on other people to make my day less painful.

Then came the time for guitar to pass the baton over to the next batch, it just felt like i really needed some time on my own to sort out my feelings, hence my decline to its following dinner invitation with my batch. During the handover, i really thought i would cry. Even sarah thought i would. And in fact, i did during camp, cos the video just came as all-too-wonderful-a-surprise, and in the pitch darkness of watching it all, my emotions just took full control. Thankfully there was miss choo's hug, and many more from those who really made my ride in guitar! But on the day itself... maybe it would have felt much better if i had, cos i just couldn't. I had this sense of overwhelming sadness, but i couldn't express it out. Maybe i didn't want anyone to know how close i was to becoming very vulnerable.

Once again when law internship ended.. i love my fellow interns and the awesome times we had, and it really bruised me when one-by-one we all left. Like it has ENDED. I wanted to read affidavits with them. I wanted to help compile the notes together. I wanted to have loong lunches and breaks with them. I wanted.. anything that would allow us all to be together having fun!! When they left, and eventually when i had to too, i spent the whole week thinking about all of them. Wishing, hoping to see them, somewhere somehow. I was looking for.. For a connection that would rekindled my happiness obtained while spending time with these people. Even if it was embarassingly funny. I wanted to see a recognition in their eyes for this mutual feelings as well. But i saw nothing during dinner. Either that, or, they hid it very well. Much better than i did or ever would. Perhaps that explains why i felt hurt too when he stopped contacting me. For a moment, i thought i've fallen in love with him. But i realised that we were quite so close, i've grown attached to the idea of him around, that when the idea burst like a bubble, he had gone on with life and left me behind to pick up the pieces. Can you imagine that? We weren't even attached, and i already feel this way. Now what if i were to become involved in a relationship??

Why can't you show me who you are and be yourself around me? Why can''t you talk to me?

I guess they kinda thought me how less emotionally attached i should learn to be towards things from now onwards. And sometimes i wonder why i chose to be what mom used to chide me as 'cold' towards others. Okie i knew that i seemed arrogant cos i usually bearly cast an eye on others. Haha that reminded me how the day calvin and i went shopping, and he taught me that while at orchard road, its the place to check people out. And yea. I usually don't nor care. Maybe i just knew i couldn't take partings too much. So if i weren't too 'warm' about things, i'd never need to experience sorrow when changes come. I need to be prepared for changes. I need to stop loving what i do too much least it ends. I need God.

''To have changes in the face of an unchanging God.''

2009-03-16T21:21:00.005+08:00

Written on 16 March 09:

U know i was just sitting and stoning there at my concierge desk this morning when i kinda felt like i needed to use this space to pen some things down again. Wells. I used to think that things would always be simple and nice and well, simple. And that, to me, gave me the feeling of happiness. You know, am i really such an unhappy child? I guess i've always been known among my family members and close relatives to be a rather hard-to-please girl. As in, they would really go lengths to put a smile on my face. I remember once when mom promised that i'd hv lemon juice with dinner. And cos everyone else didn't, i made such a big fuss over her small promise that i was the only one who got my drink anyway. At that time, it didn't really strike me that i ought to be embarrassed by my behavior. I just wanted what i wanted. (Haha just a side thought, i realised that when i said simple was my happiness, i meant simple to get my own way with things!) And when i don't, i'd flip! Well part of a good friend's well wishes in his msg to me said that it would be most important to stay happy! That kinda kept me thinking, is any reason in my life to be unhappy? Well. I guess not. Then why am i unable to be genuinely contented all the time?

Well i guess after some thought about it, i finally understood that i've been taking so many things for granted. And above all, my family! You know, they rejoiced when i was happy. They worried when i was troubled. If life was a marathon, they've been with me and by my side all the time, cheering me on in the race! Like when i mulled over my A level results, they assured me and volunteered to go to the open houses with me so that they can advise me better. When i entered Popo's house last sunday, auntie announced my grandparent's joy to see me taking a step to the university! And to me, that was significant. Cos they cared, they shared, they are by me side in each step of the way. I'm really grateful for that. I love my family!

Okie i've started work since like a week back. And if u've had asked me how i felt about my work then, i'd just have said honestly how i really detest it! Like i can't quite understand why people would choose to be in this whole environment where competitive performance is a must, office politics is an expected and like its just so hard to see God. Well. It didn't help that i got ''scolded'' today for being overly reliant on my more experienced co-receptionist. I mean, i really tried my best to learn everything in the shortest time possible. And okie fine my boss of bosses said, ''Out of ten questions, you can't answer nine-and-a-half of them''. I guess i was really quite put off by that. In addition, he said, i know u're like very young and vulnerable and like ***'s friend...so its like i always have to worry if u're alright. Wow. That was like as good as a slap across my face? I mean, i might be eighteen(the youngest around) and its my first working experience and yes i know someone there, BUT! How could you so balantly tell me all that on my like 2nd week of work?! Without even regarding how i've even been trying to memorise all the forms and log-ins, and queues!! Plus, there wasn't even a proper training session where u tell me how things work around there. I jsut had to figure my way around! I feel like screaming..HELP! Okie i guess they're all busy and all..but i'm trying alright. Actually, i secretly don't mind if u just let me go. I hate it there anyway! But no, i'm gonna stay and learn as much in the shortest time possible and PROVE to you that i can handle it! Rawr. Bite off ur head!

2009-01-06T00:02:00.003+08:00

Written in December 08:

Soo...The holidays are here! Ok maybe they already started like 2 months back when the big As ended. Well, i won't really say they we were holidays, cos you know how the festive season of christmas and countdowns just give you extra reason to be unnecessarily stressed! Haha. I've conviniently forgotten to include the numerous awesome catching up sessions with old time friends. Yep. Thrown in youth camp and slr, it was definitely a great time! :)

Maybe just some thoughts and reflections that have been staying with me over this period? Well. I like being free. I usually associate this strong desire to be so by combing the idea of my zodiac year which is the horse and that of its power to gallop! Like that of a stallion! I guess it originated from me being part of the red house way back in primary school where we happen to embolize the stallion as our house icon; something I remembered as being really proud of then. Haha. I also once heard this phrase while watching Dr. Dolittle 2 where his daughter inherit his miraculour ability of talking to animals. His daughter asked a newly captured horse why it didn't allow it's owner to tame it and put a yoke over its neck. And its reply was, ''I'm a stallion.'' It can't be controlled by mere reins. I was born to run free. By that, i mean to be free from responsibilities, from commitments, from relations etc. So after so many things has happened in the past, and finally putting away the emotional scars that were once badly inflicted on me at the worst possible time, another challenge lays ahead. Another battle which i'm not even sure of emerging victorious. Another fight which i seem to stand alone. A new phobia seemed to have develop in the course of the past year. One that i feel only God can help me overcome. If He wills. Will He?

Mm. Well i guess at this point of life, while by His grace i've managed to answer many of my lifelong questions, it also brought along more with it. And some of them which remained and perhaps will continue to suffice in the future will be: how much do your friends treasure you? Is our idea of the frienship a mutual and one of an equal understanding? To put the latter simply, are you the friend i can trust and confide, and yet myself also being the one you can trust and confide in? Much as I've tried to do away with so much thoughts about this issue about friendship in particular, because I'm more or less a rather independent and hate-to-rely-on-others-if-i-can-help-it kinda person, I've come to understand in the years that it consciously remains an important aspect of our lives that we can't simply remove and choose to ignore it. I guess ya know if youth is as they say a stage when people start putting on layers to mask their emotions from the crowd, i dare say i'm in a stage where yea, the mask is on, but can i still find a glimmer of hope for removing it from you? Can i continue to make excuses for you that oh, that's just another one of your masks, you're not really like that? Or do i even know the real you, anymore? Perhaps a lapse of time among friends often results in this. U begin to forget how to trust, how to open up to, how to allow others to do the same, how to... be a friend. Indeed if anything you can take away with you is that it takes two hands to clap. But the real question is, will you be first to raise this 'hand' - To willingly and so blatantly allow others to open the possible floodgates of hurt, feelings of being unappreciated, unreciprocated and uncared for? To reach out to others as u hold this small hope that they will respond back positively to you. Well i guess the truth is, not many or very few of us are willing to take it up. I think even for myself, as the experiences accumulate and lessons seized, I being to feel more reluctant to be this initiative to bare or bear this sense of vulnerability to others. This just well, continues to intrigue me.

So, in the year ahead, i've jotted down many resolutions. It's an old habit that came naturally to me cos of my clear forgetfulness. And i hope to achieve them of course! Haha. Okie so much for a penny of my thoughts. The year ahead is one that is definitely exciting, and challenging. But while we face individual struggles of our own, may we also be continuously surrounded by great friends who care and share these moments with! Not forgetting, above all, Jesus is our greatest friend, brother and help.

2008-11-14T17:06:00.002+08:00

Ahhh...

After much deliberation, i've decided to convey all the jumbled up thoughts in my head over this awful period! Generally, i really don't like commenting on my papers cos how i feel might not be how others feel. Plus, i've always preferred to stay optimistic about things even if i know it will go right down the drain! But this time, i've decided to take a more realistic front. Honestly, it's especially scary when i feel i've done horridly and others go like, ''oh its okay wad.'' or worst, i thought it went fine but people go like, ''crap! fail la fail la.'' Could i have been not smart enough to figure out the so called 'easypeasy' answers to the paper or was i being overly confident when i just say it was okay? Goodness, it's always in times like this that i feel so torn as a mere mortal! Haha ok, did i just sound the most pessimisstic ever? Yeah. I feel exactly like that? Anyway, so just to summarise those times when i said 'okay' it actually meant:
For gp, i didn't finish my AQ the way i intended it to and for summary, i don't know if i've picked out the correct points cos there was this whole chunk of rhetorical questions in the passage which left me unsure. Plus the questions were like not our usual sort, so..rahh...As for chem! Chem's always been one love-hate subject for me. Love because it always kept me fascinated how those particles react and stuff, but hate because it's just one tough topic to grasp! And it doesn't help when u have a tutor who doesn't quite know her stuff most of the time! Boo. Seriously. What's a good chem tuition tutor whom u only see once a week when others can have good school tutors and whom they see EVERYday? Oh and, u know i kept thinking can people who have done horridly for prelims hold high hopes for the eventual results? I mean i really don't wanna be unrealistic. For bio, i wanted to scream just-gimme-a-break ok? Like it was mostly application. So u've gotta think on the spot. Which means like u'd never know if u're correct or wrong, cos if u don't reason like the examiners do, u're dead. Not just dead. I can imagine a butcher whipping his knife and mincing. Minced meat-me, me-minced meat. Gosh. So for econs, crap, i really had better hopes for it! But, all that hopes were smashed when i started reading question1! One of the parts went like, ''discuss if the trends btwn rate of inflation and unemployment was stable for figure 1 and 2.''What the heck's 'stable'? Plus the two figures showed differing trends midway for two different countries. So stable means directly related vs inversely related or changes drastically vs subtle changes, or worst, something else? I dunno. Ughs. Plus there was a time constrain which i hardly experience before. My hand was so crammed from scribbling at the end of it! And all the time, the wise words of our dear tutor ''use your brains! must evaluate! use your brains! must evaluate!'' just kept ringing in my head! Well, i certainly hope i did.

Okay whew. After this much agony, i'm finally down to two bio papers. I gotta breathe man.
Nevertheless, i do believe that 'Faith sees the invisible, believes the incredible and receives the impossible!' So i'm gonna cast all my worries to our Father.

Isaiah 41:10
Do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
(NIV)

Keep going for the rest of the papers people!

2008-06-11T17:53:00.014+08:00

Our first day!

Our kids!

Our roomies!

Beach mannequins!

ahem*guess who's char's new bf?:P

stairway to heaven

bridge at the beach

The SIX: char, me, sam cao, allan and murph with out MOCKTAILS!

And definitely, taking home more than we came with...

2008-06-11T16:26:00.007+08:00

TOTALLY AWESSOMENESS!

Haha. I know i kinda made a resolution to stop writing here. But well good and bad, they're meant to be shared. I guess i'm sorta a little of a detail-kinda person too, so don't mind i'll begin where i left okie. So here's how it goes:

Ever since we started preparing for our concert and stuff, things picked up very quickly. Many meetings, many practices that ended with even more mini meetings, lotsa tests and well, more things to think about... it was just quite crazy. My eyeballs always feel like they're gonna pop out every night at the end of the day. But who knew. That's just the beginning!

1) Glissando
2) Guitar CIP
3) Guitar Camp
4) Post-concert BBQ!
5) Bintan meetings
6) TP concert
7) Post-TP DESSERT!
8) Bintan trip

Honestly, despite them requiring the most amount of plannings and paperwork i've ever done in my whole life yet, i've came to really love what i was doing. A lot. God gave me the joy to delight in everything! Even when granny went for a major op and mom had to spend most of the time with her, i think it only made us stronger in one way of another. So i really wanna thank everyone who has been patient and very tolerant towards me and of course, been encouraging me! =)

So i'm back from Bintan. And i really don't know how to put in words how much i've enjoyed it! Let's just say from the moment i handed in my application form for this trip, i knew i would. =) Great food. Great people. Great time! Although of course, the kids were quite a challenge, especially since our group also happened to be the smallest. But to see the joy on their faces while playing the games we planned for them...was pure bliss.

Despite being really worn out at the end of each day, Char, Allan and i still met up every night to prepare our materials for the next day. Haha. No doubt, the specially brewed green bean soup and cooking of crabs we caught sure helped us last through the late nights! =D

All in all, i really thought our campany of 6: char, caoyu, sambaey, allan, murphy and i, just made it awesome!! We basically went, planned, did, talked and joked about everything and anything together! Yep. Fill you in more when we talk k. Haha.

Me and char - the best partner and roomie!

Char and me at the fire station with h-o-t wheels!

Our catch. Which allan cooked for supper! Yumms.

Woots! 330am finally with our completed presents!
(see the 'crane-with-balloon-on-chopstick' thingy allan's posing? we made twenty-five of that in one night! Haha.)

More pics when i seize them!

Till then, it's time to get some work done. Omg. Haha.

2008-03-06T16:01:00.000+08:00

A term's came and almost gone...

I haven't penned down anything since the end of last year cos i guess there were just so many gazillion things going on, i just didn't know where to begin and end. I know how the j2 year started out all mundane and boring somehow for many, especially if you missed out on the j1 orientation and stuff not being an ogl or whatsoever. I mean, even if the year's events are just starting to pick up for you and you've already forgetten how it all started, i'm here to remind you. Anw, first to start, there definitely was a surge in people organizing outings and stuff after school. And i vaguely remembered noticing all that at the corner of my eye while ranting to my dear pals who kindly lent a listening ear, why i don't even have the bear minimum time for any of that, if i even leave my second home called school before dark. 'Fun' seemed to come in other forms of work as long as it's not you know studying. Haha. Very sadistic. I know. Sometimes, i wonder if i have misinterpreted that word. Come to think of it, i think it was more of 'work satisfaction' that kept me going. But well, there really wasn't a choice. Mondays to Saturdays were burnt, late nights were a must, 'play' was simply no where near being realistic. That's why i especially loved PE. The only 'subject' i think our dear Moe made right about. Haha. :P Oh i remembered wishing i could play soccer like guys too, cos kicking the ball was like kicking all your frustrations away instantly. Haha. But since when do guys invite girls to such games except when they want 'cheerleaders' by the side of all that action and fun. Oh, or be the sidekick goalkeeper for them cos that's the only role they have to stay still for so freaking long before the ball rolls over if you even get lucky. :P And just in case you're wondering, i think bro's really influenced me a lot, considering that's how i picked up the game from ge and his godbro when we were all tiny tots at the back garden of the old house.

Anyway, things have just been so 'volatile' this year, for quite a while, it really almost drove me absolutely crazy! I guess some people might noticed a change quite a bit this year, whether its the unaccounted fluctuation in mood swings or behaviour. Like one moment its all happy and ok, the next, its like all aloof and in solitude, if not, being cynical about everything. Bleah. But i couldn't really help it. I guess i might have forgotten to be easily contented. But to contain dissatisfaction was definitely better than spreading it. And i really wanna not hold on to grudges. Besides, i've always truly admired people who are so selflessly tolerant about everything and i thought, so why can't i? All i have to focus is being others-centred., right? But i guess it must be one of my most unsuccessful attempt. Haha. Bleah...

Okie, so i can't help but feel that i've grown distant from everybody since. But its alright, i'm happy as long as you all know i'll be arnd if you shall need me. Meanwhile, i understand how everyone's, including myself, still struggling to get past this phase of life. And we'll all be great at the end of it. :)

So terms' just about ended. I really must thank God and my family and closest friends for helping pull through this tough period and for those who've been praying for me. Thank you all for the phone calls, cards, tagging and messages. I really appreciate it. :) It's nice to have people you know you can rely on.

Now, i have to figure how to work that stand-up iron thingy soon before mom and dad leaves for israel. Ugh.

2007-12-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

Yea i know it's still kinda early, but i decided if i don't get started now, i might never finish in time.

So...Christmas is soooo near! Merry Christmas to you all! It's the nicest time of the year. U know in the past, i must admit that every time this special festive season draws near, i would involuntarily try to get myself into the 'christmas-y' mood. It's 'christmas-y' because it's just the way most of everyone does; shopping, feasting, making merry. But ABOUT WHAT? Christmas cards, Shopping bags, Present wrappers are all filled with phrases like ''Festive of Joy'', ''of Giving'', of blah blah. When i ask friends, do they celebrate, some say, ''yea...even non-christians do anyway wad...''. Well, do they? About what? Celebrate what? More appropriately put would be HOW they celebrate's partying time away, gatherings with friends and relatives, etc. And so? My point is, it's sorta become an excuse to have some fun. Period.

Well, i guess after spending all my life celebrating Christmas every year, you kinda wanna lay back and think, what's all the fuss about? I mean, i used to think, oh it's the time when everyone just gets nicer, cos we get gifts from them and all. But that's not exactly true. In fact, some just get meaner; like snatching the best bargains off those shelves during mega sales, choosing only the best part of the turkey for yourself before others grab it away, all the older people just leaving you on ur own to talk to people their own age, etc. Ch...yea, so i was disappointed. Easily. Probably the presents just make up for part of it. Still...okok..am i sounding like a potential grinch? Haha. I'm not here to spoil the occasion okayy. Instead, i guess it gets to some point when u sit back and think, what's all the big fuss about something we don't quite derive any joy from?

It's been 17 yrs man..okie not as long as say...my parents? Sometimes i really wonder what kept them going on to celebrate, and celebrate, and celebrate this over and over again, year after year? I mean, how come they never seem to tire out of it? If you aren't already sick of this 'mundane' proceedure, i sure am. Especially since all those presents come out from their pockets every time. Come to think of it, it sure can be a hassle.

Ok so here it is. I think and truly got it figured out, that the real reason we live out the whole year just for this occasion called Christmas, is because it's all about Jesus! Really. He takes the centre of everything. And we simply rejoyce because we are celebrating His birth together! Without whom, we could never have enjoyed this personal relationship with God. Yes. That's the true meaning of celebrating. We are reminded of what He has come down for. And especially HOW he came.
Uninvited, King Herod with his already much-sharpened knife, was all ready to get on His back upon His birth.
Unimportant, there was no room for Him at the inns. And had to settle for the barn; where the animals lay and were fed.
Unwelcomed, people mocked Him at the cross. Yet...

He came...
He died...
He rose again on high...

He opens the way
for the world to live again...

Hallelujah,
For all u've done.

- hillsongs united: for all you've done

Most importantly, the reason why we choose to be Christians, or declare ourselves one, is not because we are any better than anyone else in any way at all. In fact honestly, we all have our fair share of lying, gossiping, having ill intentions, coveting, hating, mocking, spite-ing, anger, jealousy, faking, envying etc. And it is precisely because we proclaim our need for redemption from all these that we do gather so to be called His disciples, and earnestly seek Him. Yep. :)

That just about sums up my reflections for this season. I'm not trying to explain anything, or convince anyone of anything, i just want to summarise that: TRUE JOY or the pursuit of happiness, especially for this season, is not derived from having fun during the occasion, nor from the exchange of gifts, nor from soaking in the atmosphere downtown at orchard with all the pretty lights and huge crowds, nor partying with friends at some mega event, nor making urself feel more needed by the society; doing volunteering etc...though yea, i guess they do bring some kind of satisfaction. I mean, i've done all of the above at least once, if not more. 17yrs, one year for each, just gives you plenty of time. So true joy, can only be derived from Him, who has already given us more than sufficient reason to.

Anyway yea, i had so much fun this hols, i don't know if i'll ever get enough of it. Haha. I loveeeed meeting everyone up. Especially the night at orchard and fantastic desert! So it's Christmas countdown with my family, yays, and our same old family friends for the last 17 years of my life again, oh and some invited friends i guess. I wonder who. Ah well, maybe some good blockbuster movie events, carolling, usual feast of food etc. Yep.

Wow. It's one long post. Guess when i don't write something for some time, and suddenly take to the keyboard, lots of things just spill out before you can go like, 'whew!' Haha okk.

So here's a Blessed Christmas and a happy New Year to all of you! Wow. Just thinking of next year, I'm sure gonna miss being a J1 at ac. :P

2007-12-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

I think i need a change of mindset. Yes. That's what i need.

:)

2007-12-10T23:04:00.000+08:00

Haha i saw this on facebook and did it for fun... it's sooo funny...

What Kind of Guy Will You Fall For?
	You would fall for the gentleman. Keep an eye out for your love at your next formal or field trip to the opera. Watch out for bad boys who walk on the inside of the curb and don't hold the door for you, and you'll end up with the guy who's suave, sophisticated, and classy through-and-through.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

Wow. Back from guitar camp and a short trip to Malaysia. I'm finally gonna settle down at home from tomorrow. But i totally loooove my holidays. Like enjoying it to the max.! Haha.. Every other day's been filled with awesome activities and great fun. Seriously, i've never even been at home since the EOY hols started for more than 6 days altogether u know! And like it's coming to an end way tooo soon! Haha...

Alrighty, better get started on some serious work sooon..:)

2007-11-27T21:26:00.000+08:00

Wednesday

More hospital stuff. Lots of walking around. Asking questions. Observing. Listening. Learning. Hmm. Nice stuff. Haha. Dead tired when i reached home.

Thursday

Final day. Sat down to talk with doctor. Treated to anything we want, but we chose the least expensive la. Went around taking pics in our white coats. Haha. Doctor was great. U know, if anyone of you inspire to be a doctor, don't just become a doctor. Become one like Dr Yap. Because he makes a difference in everyone who comes his way. He is a good doctor beyond that of any possible description. :)

Joined mom at PS again for snack and stuff.

Rushed for a concert at the esplanade in the evening. With dad and some of his friends. It was classical concert band. Posh music. But well, i was really tired at the end.

Friday

Rest day. Checked emails. Rushed some admin for the camp. Whao. Worked at the com till my back ached terribly.

Saturday

PARTY OF FRIENDS! Woohoo. Haha. Finally, after months of planning! Picked amandie and went to alethea's house. Made jelly, cooked rice, packed food. Then cabbed to wei en's house. More prep. Party was a blast! Haha. I enjoyed myself. Dinner was sushi making. So basically self service. Still. Haha. Yumms.

Sunday

Church. Headache. Home. Rest.

Monday

Guitar practice. Ouch. My fingers totally hurt okayy. But well. Lunch with lao, at tiong bahru plaza. Finally got to eat the famous laksa. Shopped for admin stuff at popular. Packed some donuts for snack. Zoooomed home to rest.

Tuesday

Scuba diving at pulau hantu. Haha omg. Today is soooo not my day for diving okayy. I had a girl's worst nightmare. Cramps. It was raining. I got bad sea sick. Like REAL bad. Vomited like twice. Yes. Gross but really. I felt terrible. Oh but the people on board with me on the boat were all great and nice! Haha. Except i think i might have totally gross-ed some of them out. Thanks to matthew, matthias and yanxun's encouragement, i actually took the chance and went snorkling with them! They were really nice. Kept waiting and like making sure i was feeling alright before we moved on tgt. All was okay and good. Except, okie yea, thou blur as usual, i snorkelled with the thingy on the wrong side. Ayee.. Anyway, i came back on the boat and sea sickness immediately striked again! Only, it felt worse. So i told them to go ahead without moi. Haha. They went onto pulau hantu for some exploration. And guess what?! When they came back, and just as yanxun was about the sit next to me, i puked! Yep. Not at him la. The last words i said to him was, "Stay away from me, i'm gonna vomit!!" And then...viola.. all was over.

Thank goodness they offered me tissue and water. Wow. Guys u know. Tissue?! Haha hmm. Okok. Yep. It was a good trip thou. Left with one last lesson now, and i'm done.

Whew. Can't wait till everything's over and then let the real holiday begins! :)

2007-11-20T21:03:00.000+08:00

Let the pics do the talkin yea. :)

Our first chhheeer as Gandhians! Haha.

Our first lunch there. Hmm. How many ac guys does it take to open a can of ham? :P
Answer: as many as we have. Oh wait, "who says we open cans? We just umm.. pay others to, don't we?" Haha we still couldn't open it in the end. :P

Mm mm. Ppl always say what you cook always taste good. Okay la, edible.

First challenge - Flying Fox. The stick i'm holding was to drag the 'vixens', okie fine foxes in.

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Absailing. Was. Time. To. Slack.

Gandhian PEST BUSTERS at ur service. Haha kidding. We were serving dinner.

Our wall challenge :)

Our best stoners :P

Rock wall was uber tough. But exhilarating! Haha. Was lucky to reach the top. With everyone cheering on and giving moi instructions.

My turn to take the grounds. U bet my arms were aching bad after all that. Haha. Fierce.

Our bored guys trying to throw stones over the line. Very. Bored. Guys.

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Pole challenge was fun.

sir: "dawn, scare a not? Not scary la. I did it all last night when u're were slping. Easy la. Later just do Gandhi cheer then u jump okie?

me, glares in disbelief: "haha ehh..i'll tell ya when i'm up there."

I was like still bargaining with mr mark on top of it about what cheer to shout before jumping. Haha. Guess heights wasn't a problem and lunch was more impt, so i jumped and whacked the bar! Woohoo! Trust me, the air is fresher up there. :P

Campfire night. Set our hearts ablazed.

And finally, after the ardous night games, it was GRADUATION! Haha. PLaying some 'talk to my back' game.

One of my best buddies during the camp. Becos of a wood splinter that got caught in her hand during the challenges, yeap ghim took us both to to first aid room. Haha we got to rest with air-con and he offered us a peach packet drink. Which basically was the best drink we had in DAYS la. Haha

Yea.

So last few days were a blur.

Friday

Scuba with cass, andy leow, jovial, sk and charlotte. Things just got even more stressful. Aye. I can't wait to just take the test and end these lessons man. Dinner with them before i rushed of to church again for WAH meeting.

Saturday

9 to 5 at church. Helping out with the camp brochures and 90s met up to finalise the stuff. I was there only to surpervise la. Haha. Teck jin and Eug are seriously big jokers. They're very very funny but no doubt nice too. The way they do things was just plain entertaining. Thought i might just have been 'niao' cos there was seriously no choice. Haha.

Sunday

Dinner with granny for her birthday. Ah well.
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Monday

Tan Tok Seng hospital. Whao. I thought our day there was fantastic. Though there was a lot of waiting. Still. You learn a lot. I like listening to the doctor discussions. Given mini lab coats and nametags, we were ready to go. We were aroung the ICU for the whole day. It's seriuosly the most depressing place of the hospital. Cos tubes were inserted everywhere and machines surround your bed. Well, all the doctors there were real nice. Except they keep trying to disuade us from joing the medical force as a doctor. Which i guess is true, if u're in for the money, don't do it. Becos they don't pay u well. Even if u're to become a private doctor. I'd say money doesn't drive you long, nor very far. Don't harm others becoss of ur selfish desire. Besides, for doctors, the learning journey is endless.

Haha on the contrary, i think this attachment hasn't succesfully disuaded me, in fact, i think it pretty much inspires rather. Compassion, no doubt is key. And i see it in their eyes.

Tuesday

Day 2 was lighter. This time we visited the normal wards. U see lots of things going on. WE were also brought around o see the Operation room, the Resuscitation room, the A&E basically. And the doc did lots of explaination, answered our quesitons and stuff :) Haha.

2007-11-15T19:38:00.000+08:00

Another week's just flew by...

Friday

Scuba pool lessons. Haha. I thought it was really scary. Like every sentence he said had a 'if u don't do this properly, or if u don't do that carefully, u can die' kinda anotation at the back. Whao. Felt very stressed. Haha. But basically quite fun also. We learn things like how to use the flippers properly, 'drop' into the pool, breathe through the snorkel, clear the fog and water, using the air tank etc. We spent sooo much time in the pool under the blazing sun that later in showers, Cass and i were complaining how unevenly charred we were. Haha.

After scuba, went to PS to join mom and cousins for lunch and shopping.

Saturday

Met up Alyssa at PS again. Talked a lot about ccaab stuff. haha.

Sunday

Lunch with mom and auntie pat.

Meeting for juniors camp. Boy, it was boring cos i'm not gonna be there during the camp itself, so not particularly involved in the games. But now teck jin has to drag me into it. Haha. K la. I'd say the youths can work well u know, the adulties shouldn't always discriminate the way we do stuff every time.

Monday

Guitar practice and meeting. Haha. I thought both were pretty good. Like throughout the journey on the way to Joanne's house, the comm. people kept telling a lot of lame jokes! Haha.

Thanks to nat's triple lunch servings, we started only at 3pm. When the drowsy afternoon mood sets in. Guess he pretty much made up for it by buying like a whole box of donuts for us all. Yays! Haha. And i brought mushmallows so we could play chubby bunny. Haha. I'm glad we got things organized a little. I was dead worried the night before. But i think i'm really thankful for each one of them in the comm. They make really good working partners. ;)

So we chilled out till pretty late after settling the important stuff. I looovvee her swing. Like her house has a really nice swing right in the middle of the garden. Her 3 dogs were just drop dead gorgeous and huge too! Haha had a hard time trying to stop them from licking my face though. haha.

Tuesday

Finally got some rest at home. So i did up the camp brochure for Juniors camp. Spent the whole day at it.

Wednesday

It was raining i rmb. Guitar practice. Outing with that two girls again. Whao. Embarrassing big time okayy. We bought 12 donuts fro lunch. 4 each. Omg. First time i see ppl dip donuts in chilli sauce and fish soup can?!?! No offence k, but i was honestly grossed out. Haha. Caught STARDUST. Seriously, i think everyone should go watch it, whether u're a fantasy fanatic like me or not. It's really nice. Magic, unicorns, love, cranky and funny ghosts, kings, princes, princesses and witches, all the magic ingredients for a fantastic fairy tale. And who says u need mega blockblaster hollywoodish stars to make a rocking good movie, huh?

Thursday

Kinda reminds me, it's an odd day to be updating my week. I mean it's usually done at the end of one or the beginning of another right? okay nvm. At least before i forget everything. Slept at 3am this morning to get the proposal for gutar camp ready. A huge big thank you to Joanne!! Without whom it could not been done at all. She stayed up with me to help get my initial proposal organized. Oh man. She's really really great.

Scuba theory in the morning. Wow. I'm quite surprised i didn't fall asleep. Lunch outing with sohteng, andy, yx, jp, char after that. Borrowed some books and went home to sleep. Whew.

2007-11-06T21:25:00.000+08:00

WOW! CCAAB's over! Woohoo! Ahh well, but since we've all been sworn to secrecy by the camp, i can't say too much abt it too. U want details, just come find me. Haha...

Anyway, so basically, our diet consisted from anything between mealwormies to smelly half-cooked veggies to well, shalln't need to say more... Sleeping time ranged from 4hrs to just 1hr! Oh but surprisingly, the day we had the least sleep, was the same day we had the most fun! Yea yays! Haha.

Girls and guys, sports and performing arts were all treated alike. Guess it was the closest you could get to army style for us le. We had people from canoe, track, rugby, golf, netball, table tennis, library, shooting, council, smc, debate, and of course, guitar! These people in my group were absolutely great! Didn't know anyone from the start except matthew the nice rugger. Haha but throughout the camp, you learn about their strengths and limitations and how to trust and rely on them, rubbing shoulders with both guys and girls alike became like second nature. Fortunately my group had more guys too, so we accomplished all our challenges well easily with all that strong muscles to lift you, support you and carry you etc...hahaha nice. Ran in the rain, wad in the mud, crawl under the drains, trekked in the 'jungle' were just some things. I really loved everything we did as a team! =)

Oh haha, not forgetting, we had the finest mentors too! Plus an old boy who's only 3 yrs older and the best camper or smth for his batch who's attached to our group, but we called him uncle anyway la. He's freaking nice. Applied leave from army just to attend this camp with us. At the end of our 3 and 1/2 hrs trekking, he started to suan me!! Muahaha...i was all ready to flung my watch at him when i thought i heard him say crescent ppl had the 'gender' look just becos i said i was from crescent..haha u know...but nah, he said we have the gentle look!! Hahaha..

Okies so much for CCAAB. Got my badge last night at the grad dinner. And i'll definitely miss all the wonderful memories we all had tgt.

Alrighty, in addition to the previous list of camps i'm gonna have for this hols, now i also have a WAP at TTK hospital for 4 days. Must thank ms low for her recommendations... Haha wow. Life never got busier than this! And i'm gonna enjoy them all! =) Yays!

2007-11-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

Awwwrighty! Packed holidays ahead.

1. Oral Presentation is OOVEERR.
thanks loads lau for all the prep talk through the night! Hahaha and aly for your early morning call! Kel for you wishes too! =) Love ya all loads!! Oh and of course, everyone else who's sent their best regards =)) They meant a great deal!

2. CCAAB
Nat i wanna kill the person who bully us into bringing our guitars when we've alr got so much barang barang to bring! I mean just think about it, lucky for those like SMC who need only to bring their brains, and track bring trainers, dance bring their tippy toes, etc. Canoe should just bring their boats too la! =P

3. Scuba
Haha needa go swimming to build up some stamina first! Ahh...

4. Movie MARATHON! plus sleepover(hopefully)
Eh start making your lists first while waiting leh. Movie lists, food lists, etc..hahaha

5. POF party
Kudos to Alethea and Steph for their hard work in designing the invites for me! =) Thanks dears!

6. Guitar Camp
Gotta get organized once i come back! No time! No time! Rahh...

7. Juniors Camp
Okay this one can just go there and relax. Maybe laugh at teck jin. Okie just kidding, but he's really comical la. Watch the cute kids. Wahaha =)

8. Youth Camp
Sigh. Should i, should i not? Should i, should i not? Should i, should i not? Don't know la.

9. SLR camp

Okie, who says holidays just began? =)

2007-10-29T20:47:00.000+08:00

When Narcissus died, the goddesses of the forest appeared and found the lake, which had been fresh water, transformed into a lake of salty tears.
"Why do you weep?" the goddesses asked.
"I weep for Narcissus,"the lake replied.
"Ah, it is not surprised that you weep for Narcissus," they said, "for though we always pursued im in the forest, you alone could contemplate his beauty close at hand."
"But... was Narcissus beautiful?" the lake asked.
"Who better than you to know that?" the goddesses said in wonder, "After all, it was by your banks that he knelt each day to contemplate himself."
"I weep for Narcissus, but I never notices that Narcissus was beautiful. I weep because , each time he knelt beside my banks, I would see in the depths of his eyes, my beauty reflected."...

-an adaptation from the Alchemist

For those who do not know, Narcissus was the man who was strangely entranced by his own exotic and beautiful reflection in the lake. Staring at it everyday, he has unknowingly fell in love with himself. Devastated when the image dissipates at his mere touch of the waters, he eventually died... admiring his very own image. Tale has it told that the goddesses took pity on him and named the flower that grew beside the lake after his death Narcissus.

Well, i grew up reading folk tales, fairy tales, tall tales, long tale, all sorts, i just loved them all. And familiar with the usual ending of this story in particular, i was pretty surprised at this version's, the lake's version. Haha. I guess it pretty much reflects the Narcissusism in all of us, whether we're 'beautiful' or not in any ways, it always seem easier to think the best of ourselves and as a result, fail to notice that of others. In other words, maybe if we take a second look at others and stop taking only ourselves into consideration, we might just be able to better appreciate the good in others and value them for that. Yep. I don't wanna be called difficult no more, so that just about sums up my own self-solution for all those, okay fine petty, whatever grudges i've held against y-o-u, you! Yep. You almost made me forget how to be me though.

Okay. Yays! Today, went shopping for the right dress and stuff. Took some 8hrs for that. From city hall, bugis to orchard. Ah well. We went everywhere, tried on everything and finally, viola, saw it like it was the right ONE all along. Whew. Good therapy. Now, work starts. =) The happy way.

2007-10-25T02:22:00.000+08:00

Gone is the euphoria since we came back from our visit to OCS today, nevertheless, i totally enjoyed myself there! Haha. My arms are still aching from lifting the whatever-it-is-called rifle at the shooting trials, but i think that was the most exciting part of it all! Every bullet i shot hit the targets spot on! Yea and the officer partner attached to me said i was good, like really good. Hahaha..oh but i think he was just trying to be 'encouraging' cos i was shaking a lot just carrying those uber heavy arms, even with both hands! Haha still he shook my hands like before to intro and then again after the shooting excercise. Hmm that was polite. Haha anyway, it sure was a great experience.

They live in pretty much like a chalet there - spacious clean and huge canteen, 2 per bedroom but with a desktop in each plus INTERNET access, air-conditioned hall, yummy food rations(bro says only these ppl are fed the best food..haha), football court, tennis courts, 4m-deep pool, squash courts, gym hall etc. Wow. Minus the tough trainings, i think it's like every singaporean guy's dream place for army vocation or something. Our tour guide was really nice too. Lihao's his name. Didn't realise he too was from ACJC till he said he was from guitar ensemble too!! Haha. What a coincidence. And i asked him why didn't come back to visit us? Haha then i realised how stupid the question was, he's in NS duh?! Oh but he was nice enough about it. Haha. And i heard him sighing softly to himself how he misses his mom when it was time for us all to leave and go home. Haha. That well, just fills ur heart with sympathy for them doesn't it? That place is great, but it's still not home. And i can understand how they feel. Anyway, just to sum up, if there's anything i learn on my trip there, it's that that's the exact place where boys really do become real men, like gentlemen yet tough at the same time, over there. I mean, just look at what a few months there has turned those officer cadets only 2 yrs older than us into? Great work.

No doubt of course, there are already some gentlemen amidst us now. This guy lifted the food tray that collects our plates at the canteen volunteerily when he saw me carrying 5 empty chicken rice plates approaching the trays today. And i thought that was real sweet. We sure need more like him around. =)

Okay, two more days and counting to the end of this year..woohoo!

2007-10-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

It's amazing how you
can speak right to my heart.
Without saying a word
you can light up the dark.

Try as i may
i can never explain
what i hear when you don't say a thing.

The smile on ur face
lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes
saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand
says you'll catch me wherever i fall

You say it best
when you say nothing at all..

All day long i can hear people talking out loud
but when you're holding near
You drown out the crowd
Try as they may
they can never define
what's been said between your heart and mine...

The smile on your face
the truth in ur eyes
the touch of ur hand
lets me know...

Chem spa's finally over. Yays! Which marks the actual end of promos! You can never imagine the immense outburst of joy i felt when i handed in the paper..haha..felt like a prisoner who's chains just been unshackled after a whole century of imprisonment, just absolutely FREE! Haha. Well, i'm really glad ya.

Oh well, i've also finished harry potter's seventh. Maybe i've grown up over the years reading it or maybe i sought for a different genre at this age, i think it's not something fantastically well-written afterall, but still, it provides a conclusive ending to something i once was crazy after and that's good enough.

You know, just an afterthought, i might just be able to finally understand how in this world why people always say one cannot exist without the other. Like how there can be no joy without hurt, no good without bad, so on and so forth. I must admit, i'm like that. I can't have appreciated what's really good and well done without first seeing or experiencing for myself what's bad or disastrously done. And today, instead of complaining that i hate people who try to push the blame to others and never themselves, going a little too far with their words sometimes, i got to see the others who has been quietly working at the back of it all to try and make things work all the while. Maybe not always offering the best solutions but still, for the thought of it. And i'm really grateful for that. Those who might have otherwise gone unnoticed and unappreciated for their quiet endurance, patience and keen interest to cooperate and get things done. Yep. =)

I got to play at the swings at yx's house again today. Haha. A small boy even asked me to push his swing for him. Kept saying, "I wanna go higher, i wanna go higher". Really cute. Haha especially how he muttered a soft thank you before he left. Kids. They can be so adorable sometimes. =)

2007-10-05T23:10:00.000+08:00

YAYS! Promos are over. But was kinda too tired to write anything ytd, so now that my energy store has been replenished, i'm BACK. =)

Went to vivo then to orchard today. Really need a leg massage after all that marathon walking. Whew. Better than doing yoga and gyming. I mean, what's beats getting cranked up by the usual folks too at the same time. =P

Had secret recipe for lunch before skipping back to the cinema to catch RATATOUILLE! with a bag of popcorn and spilt coke. Haha it's a great show anyway! Pretty inspired by 'Anyone can cook' phrase. Hmm..maybe i'll try something a little bolder next time? Who wants a Spagetti with fried Chocolate mushrooms or or a Onion Cream Cheese Cake eh? Haha just kidding, i hate onions anyway but whatever it is, all i know is the first step of any successful recipe will definitely say "DO NOT INVITE BLURDUCK and LAULAU". Haha if u vaguely recall our brownie failure last year!

I got my flip flops too! But not before laulau broke hers too. Haha. And we tried securing the strap with hairpins! Like three girls kneeling and bending down right in the middle of Topshop trying to fix a shoe. I think i ended up looking like some goofy aunty coughing out some fashion statement in the most unglam way. And then just to make sure we could make it out of the shop to the nearest seats, we exchanged shoes cos afterall, guess who can glide more nimbly and lady-like other than ahem* me? ^^ No la..haha it's not the first time i've been trying to 'walk' around with a broken shoe anyway. Haha. Anyways, all the better reason to shop for new shoes. So yea. Haha yays and got the CD 'Movie Love Songs' which i've been listening to the whole night for like at least ten times. It's really nice, i like romantic songs i guess.

Oh oh then we took a train down to Orchard. Haha things started becoming more unusual first by bumbing into mr cadence lim and some other ac teachers at taka. And they practically saw us avoiding them la! Haha then with aly being approached by a china lady who couldn't get a cab and we had to bring her to the queue-up line. After that, OMG, we saw this two big headed jap mascots at cine. Haha they were really cute, so i exclaimed when i saw them until they saw us and started charging towards us! AAAaaahhh omg, imagine having two mascots with big and oversized heads running towards u!! We were like screaming and running in the other direction! Haha and i bet those groups of cj and acsi guys arnd that area were laughing at us too okayy! Gosh, twas' embarrassing.

2007-09-15T11:59:00.000+08:00

Thinking is such an exhuastive process,
they say having more choices and
considering more options
is good.
I say it just makes you
more confused.
I wanna stop thinking...

1) We have a new classmate now.
2) I debated about a person's human behavior with 3 others. It was enlightening to hear new views. But after discussing them some more at home with ge, i decided i still hold my views.
3) My guppies gave birth. And the baby's growing so fast. Haha..
4) I'm fed up with getting wrong info from her for chem everytime! Especially for a test.
5) I got new shoes cos my slippers broke. Ok no link. I still wanna get new slippers.
6) I'm thankful for all the helpers at open house, especially debbie and her amazing knots. Haha. Okay and really all who came to spend the extra time helping out. =) You guys all rock!
7) I actually practiced my old czerny pieces to de-stress last few days.
8) I've been eating an icecream everyday after school. Gahh..not healthy!
9) I got flu. Boohoo..
10) Everytime i stare at the fish, i wish i can turn into one of them. Swim here and there all day long. Ahh..what luxury... Haha. I think the fishes are becoming obese. But nvm, ain't no big matter. =P

2007-09-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

Yays! Went to watch Secret today. Like finally. Mom wanted to watch it cos auntie har eng told her it was good. Ge wanted to watch it because he heard the music pieces were good. I wanted to go, well..i didn't exactly want to la, let's just say laulau's naggings finally registered in my brain(haha...aren't you proud?) and so cine it was. And OMG WASN'T the storyline BRILLIANT or what! I emphasize STORYLINE. The music was FANTASTIC. For music-lovers, its simply a must see! And the twist at the end was just AMAZING. For a composition like this, i must say it's definitely an A grade. As for the cast, haha... i still think they could have done with less of the 'taiwan' slang. Okay, i'm acting like some movie critique already. But yea, it was nice. =)

Haha. Anyway i think i got kinda bossy and fussy last friday over the banner and deco thingy. Haha. So sorry about that, i felt pretty bad after that. At the same time, i also really wanna thank all those who came down to help till everything ended. Had a good laugh at the jokes too! =) Yep. So till open house, happy holidays everyone!

2007-08-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

63 paper cups,
9 paper bags,
6 greased pans,
3 unsuccessful attempts
2 burnt batches
1 hot oven
plus a BIG dose of love and patience from mom
later,

TA-DAH!

COOOKIE CUP CAKES at 1230am for teachers' day! Whews. And Yummy! =)

So much that cannot be put in words
are simply steammed off in anger...
Gahh...

2007-08-10T21:04:00.000+08:00

Don't i just wish i can do this all the time...

I'm exhausted.

Shall start to pick things up again.

Inhales. Focus. Exhales.

Okay.

Bring it on.

2007-08-09T16:29:00.000+08:00

Love is like a war: easy to begin. hard to end.
- proverb

2007-08-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hit pause, refresh and play! =)

Yays!!! We've finished wr! Like finally after staying at yx's house till 9.30pm. Haha okay that was inclusive of swinging at the swings for 15mins before we decided it was really late AND tired enough.

Haha i feel like saying boo..i've been robbed of two of my favourite pens! Then again, all my pens are my favourites. And suddenly they're all under his custody! Seriously, i'd rather have them back and forgo my sushi teh treat than have them put up at that cockroach-ridden house or that bag of colin's okayy! Haha after all my pens have sentimental value too u know. Grr... okay gonna start nagging on somebody already..haha...

Mms..yea I should go back and read emma's book. It's kinda addictive. =)

2007-08-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

Psalm 23

The Lord is my shephard, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me besde quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

Even though i walk
through the valley of the shadow
of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You annoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and i will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.

Went to chervons to bowl with caoyu, nat, annabel, sharul, sufan and cynthia before heading to secret recipe for dinner. Can't aim properly for nuts la. And guess what? our first dish came only at 9.30pm!! Boy, weren't we famished kids all of us. Haha anyway, i got kids meal for dinner and choc banana cake again! Yumms.
Frisbee was way fun too! Haha. OKayy..got ta read hp finish!!Arr... and presents!! So many ppl's birthdays are in august, I need to shop for presents! Yays. Perfect excuse don't you think. To do some shopping!

Oh yea. Before i forget, to whom have been passing unpleasant messages to a dear friend of mine, just wanna let you know that i've been praying for you. I don't hate you but I pray that you too will find joy, and love and respect for yourself and others in your life. Lastly, i don't mind if u hurt me, but would appreciate if u just leave my friends and those i care about alone. Thanks. Yeps.

2007-07-28T15:56:00.000+08:00

Last week was one of the toughest i've had. Managed to save myself from a close shave to dc. Whew! Scrapped through guitar with half my poor overly worked comm members absent. Sighs i do so hope they'll get better and come back soon! But ya anyway, thanks everyone who helped and for ur support, without which i could not have possibly survived this week. (Haha okie it sounds like a thank-u speech at some prize presentation ceremony, nevertheless, its impt..these people are really impt to me!)

Yep. So wells, recieved some really bad news on friday after pe which left me feeling dead moody and frustrated over what went wrong. I dunno. Its like getting a tight slap across my face for no comprehensable reason. Then having to handle the situation pretending like none of those ever took place and even expect worse stuff to come all at once! Sigh plus the accumulation of not-so-nice feelings over the entire week.. You can imagine how awful i was feeling at math when i whamed! my file so hard on the table. But i must also add, it was during math that i really saw some of the truest and best friends i have in my class. Jp(aka original fatfat..haha), yx, colin and of course weiting!..haha who actually listened patiently, even suggesting and allowing moi to scribble and then bold out all my rants out on his arm so many times haha yays!... Upper beings eh, yea, you guys totally are the power man! Haha... My spirits totally lifted after their hard work, at least for the while long enough to see me through pw and bio spa later on, haha..=) Thanks guys, really!

Yeps. That's just about sums up my week. Speech day today was emms..good. I know Crescent will be a nice part of my life's history forever. =)

tag reply:thanks so much gal! Rmb to confirm for monday, i don't care, must must must meet ah! Haha...

2007-07-15T19:52:00.000+08:00

Been a long week. Though i've been returning home late every day last week, i kinda really like the evening walks back from school. Thanks for the wonderful weather.

today, i asked myself
what if i'm not all that i thought i was.
what if i haven't done enough.
i wonder why at a million things,
i never get the answers to.

2007-06-30T20:50:00.000+08:00

Yayness term-ies are over! Been sooo long. Okie let's see, i remembered going to ywca old folks home during the holidays. Lots of nice memories. But i also remembered that when i first saw the people there, i felt a sudden surge of sadness within me. Like will i end up there someday, be left idling and waiting for each new day to pass as soon as they come. I dunno. Anyway. I think talkin to old folks' really nice. They tell you about themselves and their lives. Really interesting to hear so much from them.=) One lady taught me to fold some origami while telling me about her children. Popped by queenstown library in attempt to mug chem after that. Met ling, cassandra and some band friends. Haha. Squabbling with shi bin was really entertaning! Must have laughed more than periodicity went in my head. Oh i met joel from guitar too. Who actually asked me who's the next president for council. Haha omg, he thought i was from council! Told him i wasn't and then that boy laughed at me okay. Then his friend and him said i got council face -_- Celebrated granny's birthday at some chinese restaurant. I kinda realised my cousins are always leaving the decision-making to me..haha they're always to nice and tolerant towards me. Anyways, got to order all kinds of food that i like. Yumms.

Oh band concert. Went with jolene, ryan and a couple others. It was a great evening out with them. Haha.

I also remebered youth sunday. The play was superb. Oh organising the ushers was kinda fun la. Just a part of our little convo that's really funny:

ryan: dawn, what do i wear for youth sunday?
me: erms..we agreed on green long sleeved and pants rmb? So can can?
ryan: you mean i have to wear both green shirt and green pants?

-_- Ya I'd sure like to see you wear green overalls.

Okay sorry maybe not so funny. But he makes such a cute little boy, doesn't he? Haha.

Went for kbox with some classmates yesterday. It was a fantastic way to relive all the stress accumulated from terms. My first time there too. Hahaha. Andy and yx did some rapping while van and i sang the chorus for one song. Super duper funny! Played some games and made the guys eat lemon as punishment. Haha. And omg, recieved a me-to-you teddy from some of them! Was really sweet of them =) Gonna put in on my armchair and hug it every time. Got back to ac to collect some shirts in the evening. That's where and when i also got to have a chat with james (if anything, i found the 'inspirational' talk pretty interesting and it made me think quite a bit more..hmm..okay). Was dead tired at the end of the day.

Shopping at vivo with the whole family today. Haha okay. I wanna watch transformers and goal II!!

2007-06-19T21:24:00.000+08:00

Haha had an awesome day today! U see, i usually don't write about thy birthday, its secret! Best things are savoured most when they are kept private. But as tribute to my dear friends who made it so special today, this is for them! =)

Morning started out really boring. Just the usual, keeping up with readings and stuff. I mean i didn't really expect much either, considering that dad, mom and ge's celebrated in advance with me on sunday plus ge's got me my crumpler bag (bahaha...people say they got sugar daddies, i got a sugar brother who's given me everything i wished for!). Anyway, afternoon came and i strolled down to the bus-stop to wait for little miss late and lamey lau. Must say, i'd applaud these amazing hollywood actresses la! (this includes mom, who actually obligingly 'schemed' with them..haha..can go ask them for the wonderful plot they came out with!). I think the whole idea was to get me out of the house first right? Yea. By cheating my feelings. Haha but oh wells, was really touched to tears when i made my way back home and saw my dear alyssa hitting the piano and lau lau liting the choc cake in my room! Aaahh! Yes! MY ROOM! Haha. Messy. Ya but omg. Thanks thanks! You made my seventeenth really sweet. Rest of the day was spent at swensens chatting.

Okay i'll let the pics do the talking...

oh and i wouldn't dream of disgracing anyone with them..grins*

mom says these girls sure know how to make themselves comfortable at home. either that, or they've been to my house so many zillion times, they're no stranger to it anymore. haha.

Just look at the amount of tissues they use just for the cake and the mess! shakes head* hahaha...

Anyway, thank u pals, classmates and cousins, okie everyone! who texted me or called to give me their well wishes today. They made me smile a lot more today =) I'm seventeen. Don't know if i like that idea. But yea, i'll get use to it. In just a matter of time!

2007-06-09T15:02:00.000+08:00

Ho ho holidays gone by a week. Didn't really go out much. Watched howl's moivng castle on tue. Was really touched by the theme on how love empowers all. Yea. Tried a new chocolate crisps recipe too. Haha but it's kinda by trial and error in addition to the recipe, you know, to make it emms nicer and more to personal liking and ya..stuff, so not sure if anyone wants ta try it. Maybe i'll just keep it for times when my stomach craves for food. Hmms. Which come to think of it, happens quite a lot everytime during the hols. Anyway, had been dying to do so since last year maybe? Haha. Went shopping on thurs. Yays! And to holland v on fri to meet mich. The whole family hit botanic gardens this morning for breakfast and walk. I realised that everytime we go there, i've been trying to convince mom to get me a bunny. I don't know why but am still trying hard at it. Haha. Ain't it just so cute?

oh of course, i mean these little baby bunnies. But ya, my choc crips looks nice eh...haha, that mouse pad's added for effect thou.

2007-05-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

Had breakfast with teck jn and beep on monday morn. At least i know where dover market is now. And thanks dude, for the bubble tea treat. Camp's over. Yays. Enjoyed it. Thou it was one of slackest i've ever attended. Which left me enough energy to sleep at the bleachers for a bit, stay up till early dawn and do crazy things like ahem making ahem annoymous calls? *winks* Haha. Had many funny moments during the camp. I like it.=)Lunch with gujie, caught a movie with gege and visited granny today! Yays. Which kinda reminds me. Everytime i see my baby cousin, i see why i'm lucky my wish to have a younger sibling never came true. Haha. I'd have made a very horrid older sister. bleah.

Okay. Econs essay, here i come.

2007-05-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

Strolled along singapore river and all the way to esplanade with my family during the weekends. It was nice alright. We popped by the asian cultural museum on the way. Let me tell you, it sure is freaky in there. Won't wanna go in there again if i can help it. =P

Went for 2 concerts just this week alone. Kronos(Strngs' ensemble) on tuesday and Restless(Dance) just an hour ago. Met up with alyssa, kenneth, peidee and kaiyuan for the former. Haha. Enjoyed it, except for the part when the guys started fanning themselves with the programme booklet??! Haha. Oh anyway, i lurve the harpsichord!! It looks so antique-like and makes such beautiful music. Okay, so it's on my number one 'must-collect-one-day' list. =) Dance was fabulous too! With loads of energy. The 3 of us, cheng xiang, jiesi and moi became a little crazier after the whole show. Took millions of candid shots..haha. Will upload them another time. Yep that's about it briefly. =)

2007-05-21T20:41:00.000+08:00

You Are 36% Girly

You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit.
Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way.

How Girly Are You?

2007-05-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

Okaay. This week, I ran 2.4 again to cheer the rest of the girls on. And also because I don't know how and when, but the very sight of a football just brought about a simultaneous congregation of boys from all the other pe classes too. Soccer is so not my game, so i scrammed. Haha. Alright. I was late for school on tuesday. My first time. Dang the clock. It stopped and cheated me of 10 whole minutes. Oh but fortunately, it was a slightly rainy day. Saved from detention. Yippee. Okok, no more threading on such fine lines..I won't risk anything. Yeps.

2007-05-12T20:42:00.000+08:00

Nice week. Played some kind of modified handball game with most of the guys and charmaine for the first half of PE while waiting for the rest of them doing napfa to join us. Haha. It was funny. They used all sorts of methods to play the game, we couldn't really find a name for it. Soccer fanatics like colin and yx must always do some tricky stunts with their legs before aiming the ball towards the goalpost, while basketball ones like weiting would do his aiya basketball way of tossing. Haha. Anyway, so mean of them la. All of them went like "Wahh.." when ms tang said i got gold for napfa. Like they couldn't believe it or something. Heh. I'm fit okay! Haha. Oh the girls were even funnier when they came later. You can hear them screaming everytime the ball flew towards them. Zhuan called it the distraction strategy. Haha. Nice one. Oh yea. We found some smashed bits of red stuff spluttered all over the windows on the 5th floor. Then for each day of the whole week, weiting, colin, yx and I have been checking on it. Haha. Each one of us's been giving a 'critical analysis' of it. Haha. It's still there and yes, we're still trying ta figure out if it was a bird that got cruelly spliced by the generator of just a tomato fruit that's been squished and then used to disguise a massacre. Dunno. Haha. Colin sent me a pic on it. But oh wells. We'll know when the worms start coming. Whatever it is, their theories are so funny. You should hear them.

Oh wells. All would have been fine except that some of us got scolded. Like again. Okay, it wasn't really a scolding. James said he's not really affected by it and laughed when I got so agitated by it. So here's how it went. Vanessa, James, Jiesi and I were taking the lift to bio lab. Some bald-headed teacher(I don't mean to be so mean and explicit, but this guy, arrgs! If he could keep his comments to himself, I promise I'd keep mine too!) came in with another lady teacher. Her hands were full(and so were mine, pls). I hadn't read my SPA package yet, but somehow I managed to take mine back from james. But this man huh, had to say to james and th rest of us, "You should be passing your things to her (ME) and helping this teacher carry hers instead. " And before he left, "Aiyah, you youngsters ah, are terrible you know!" (Fortunately the lady teacher was uber nice. She said it was alright she could manage and she was getting out on the 2nd floor.) Okay the point is. In a way he was right, we could have offered to help (so could he actually, mister!), but it's the last sentence her said that really irked me. So much for acting all nice and helpful, the big question is, why couldn't he himself have offered to help if he really meant it? And since he didn't, isn't he as terrible as he called us?! Especially when those words were unnecessary. Is this what you call pointing a finger at others and having the other four at yourself? I once saw him pushing one of my friends pretty hardly aside because he accidentally crossed this man's walking pathway. So really, if he had that gentlemanly streak in him at all.

I think after reflecting quite a bit on my own emotions and events like this, I realise how much I hate to be criticised unfairly. If I deserve to be scolded, fine. Like if i didn't do my work or something, i would accept being sent for detention even though i don't like it. The thing is that i would accept it without retaliation. And even form the right attitude meant to be achieved throught this form of discipline - embarassment, if not better, shame. But this inccident. If i don't deserve it, i won't tolerate it especially if it's a comment made by a senior. Cos they always think they're older and more respectable and therefore am qualified to give more of their opinions. Like hello, no one is superior to others because of age alright. If you don't deserve my respect, that's it, you won't get it. And in any case, if i make an effort to listen to you even though you may be wrong, it will be because, for one, i respect you and the other, i know you did it out of love for me. Mom says i shouldn't take things so personally and not like let a situation like this affect me because there may be many more to come. That's true. Got branded as irresponsible for not checking the paper filler for enough paper before printing my documents. Wow. Like is there a problem if i fill it up with paper later when it's empty later? For goodness sake, it won't even spoil the printer. I think we all need some common sense education once in a while.

Whew! This is like a dump for my rages. Well at least once I've vomit it all out, it won't affect me again. Me? I need anger management i think. Haha. Grr..

2007-05-04T19:49:00.000+08:00

It's enough when I say so.

Another week's just flown by. Dotted by some tests here and GPP there. Had CIP at padang for the JPMorgan Corporate race yesterday. And I must say, it was one muddy trip. Stayed till 8.30pm to clear things up plus wash the mud off my shoes. Was so tired by the time I reached home. Did AQ till 2 this morning. But haha, I earned 20 bucks and some cip hours. Pretty worthwhile. Charmaine and I were so stressed because we had to take time for the first and second runners, and then both of us got so bored and sickened by the smell and sweat while waiting for all the runners to stream in. A pity nilawan couldn't join us. Boo hoo. Oh anyway, esplanade's so pretty when the sky's all dark and starry. =)

Our eeky muddy shoes. It got five times worse at the end of the whole event! Guess which is mine?

Charmaine and moi in our bright yellow shirts =)

Oh haha some random pic. Dunno who wrote it on one of the chairs in our base classroom.

Anyway. I got freaking irritated by some person who kept pinching my cheeks and pinched them so hard. Like she would suddenly spring on me and pinch both sides so freaking hard. Once yesterday. Twice today. I mean like what in the world?! I hate it i hate it. I have had enough alright! It ain't the first time she's been this irritating. Was trying to cap nap on the mrt because of an already irksome headache and she had to keep playing an annoying hp ringtone right in front of me and even said to the rest, "Shall we wake dawn up?" Like if you meant no harm and stuff, it's really fine. But this woman actually arrghs!! Beeezz..

Okay okay shall stop whining. Got work to do.

2007-04-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

Been such an eventful week. Just realised I didn't write about guitar recital itself. Haha. Yea okay so brief details. Reported at 6 in the evening. Helped some of the girls do the reception table's layout, but didn't really do much. Like really. I just stood there and tear scotch tape for them while they did all the lacing and decor. And whao, they're like good. You would never guess everything we used was actually recycled. Haha. Yea and Jj came. Felt pretty bad I left early. But I was really tired.

Anyway, went for choir's syf yesterday. Got out of school, hopped on the train and cabbed to vch. Haha the taxi driver was like super friendly. He asked me if I was gonna perform or something. Was pretty lazy to explain things, so I just muttered a mm... and then he went perform what? Singing? Whao uncle super accurate, see my face then know I'm a singer already. Good job. So I said a mm... again. Haha. Oh wells, at the back of my mind the whole time was ahh! Uncle please please drive faster, I'm gonna be freaking late if you don't hurry! Haha. OKay so back to my point. I thought they sounded really good. A pity they didn't achieve the result we had expected. Nevertheless, I'm happy they did their best. And the greatest part of it all was seeing them all so beautifully dressed up and pretty once more. Got to eat pizza with them for lunch after that. Some pics to sum it all. =)

roses! <3

oooh so dark!

2007-04-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

AC guitar got GOLD with HONORS! Hip hip hooray! Haha. Went with the ensemble to Singapore Conference Hall today. The first performance we watched was raffles. They were good. Like real good with all that tricky bee-like fast tunes and interesting tapping techniques. Amanda and I were guessing they would get gold or something. But apart from probably the high level of difficulty, somehow the songs they played didn't really appeal to the judges (and myself) much. They got a reasonable gold though. Many other schools got gold with honours this time. Including ACS(I). But when they announced our school, everyone went estatic!! Haha. Joel was hyperventilating. Then we did the ac cheer like right there, right then. Haha. After that Amanda and I decided to go back on our own. We asked the lady at the counter for like mrt directions. She said something like, oh just go straight all the way, about 5 minutes walk. Haha yeah right. We walked out and had no idea what she meant by straight when right ahead was the huge DBS building. Haha. In the end, we tailed some seniors from guitar to raffles mrt. And I'm pretty sure it took way much more than 5 minutes! Oh but along the way, I think Amanda and I were like overwhelmed by the results, we went a little crazy. She went like, "I think I'm too tall." "What's your height?" "164" "I'm 165 Amanda, that makes me WAY taller than ahem you know" Haha. Then she would break out into fits. She's super funny. Reached home at around 7.30pm and I'm dead tired. Okay better start homework. =)

2007-04-13T23:49:00.003+08:00

Whew. Another week's gone by just like that. And it's been so horrid. (Haha then again, he's right, everything's always horrid to me!) Ahh but Chem was uber tough and so was Bio! And two more are coming up. Sigh. And haha how come silly rumours never seem to die down? They just get funnier and much to my immense horror (yes again), wonder if they've got some truth to them. Sigh. Hopefully not. Anyway, on the lighter note, I'm gonna wear the ac tie tmr!! Oh yes! Haha. Fat fat tried to tie the tie for me today but haha our body length very different, so it was too hard. Nevermind. Shall get someone else to help me out. Oh yea, went out with some of the girls from guitar on wednesday - Divinia, Sarah, Bernie and Amanda. We went to PS and Vivo to shop for the stuff. And don't know how, I think we all became a little crazy from all the exhaustion, we sorta set up a 'factory' at Burger Kings. Haha. Super funny. They're really nice people to talk to. Especially Divinia. =) Only went home at 6 plus 7 when we completed everything. Yeps.

Okay the problem is that you have a big attitude problem and you never seem to appreciate or treasure what people have done for you. It's always what's others have done to displease you and then you throw your tantrum. My dear, it's about time you realise the world doesn't revolve around you alone. Tell me when was the last time you even admitted you were at the wrong and actually meant it. Nobody ever tells you you're wrong that's why you never know how you offend. And when someone does, you behave in the most ridiculous manner. Like the whole world owes you something. You don't even know what impression you give to others with that kind of attitude and when they tell me, I feel so embarrass trying to cover it up. I'm so tired of this endless game. If you even have a concious,do me a favour, just stop and think for a second the things that people have done to show their sincerity and consideration. Forget it. It's not even worth me being upset. It just tires me. And don;t ever talk to me like that. No one ever does, not even my parents, so you better not. Don't think you're the only one who knows how to get angry. Don;t make me lose my patience. Goodbye...

2007-04-01T19:39:00.000+08:00

Oh wells, been such a long time since I've had time to pen some stuff down. Just realised that because it's been this long, I've forgotten most of the things that happened already. Haha. Okay I'll try as much as I can. Friday had sushi with some pals before choir. Aleathea kept asking what I as going to wear for the wedding. Oh trust me, I didn't plan to wear what I eventually did. It was only decided on the morning itself and eeks, don't think I'll wear it again if I can help it. Haha. Oh yes saturday!! Went to watch phatom of the opera with dad and mom. I can tell you, it's a FANTASTIC and MUST-SEE musical!! I really enjoyed it so much, I can watch it a million times! The effects and music were superior and second to none. Haha. I actually jumped out of my seat twice. Yea. The guy next to me kept laughing I think. Oh I remember tuesday's the day my pinkie got the terrible cut. Some big guy stepped on it during pe while we did push-ups. Wednesday, got to complain to Aleathea, Teri and Henrietta about it during the wedding rehearsal. I felt so sick before that, like the usual headache came back to haunt me. Omg and Johnny was so funny la. He showed us his usual 'cheerleading moves' and wanted us to move to it while singing?! Like way no! Haha. He's the last person I'd ask for suggestions next time, especially dancing moves. Friday was best! I thought our class bonded pretty well during the super long break. Like I actually didn't know the five of us: Jean, Andy, Yuxuan, Weiting(omg weiting??!) and me were from/are in choir?! Haha. Started singing a lot and laughing with the rest during the whole 1hr20min lunch break. We could joke about everything, like even the tissue paper I offered to Aysha?? (Haha. I threw it away in the end.) Oh and I just found out the trick to running fast and well already. Just run with a tracker man. James was like running with me. And haha. He's a fantastic runner. Oh that reminds me, Collin's really funny. You know we were doing jumps at the sandpit. After that we had to put the plastic cover back over the sand right? Yea Collin reached for it and guess what he said?! "Eeks! There are sandflies!" Haha omg. No offence, but I think even I am more man than him la. Anyway played volleyball till 8pm, my arms are so bruised and sore now, before going back with Emma. =)

Saturday again! Haha nice wedding. The girls were so excited. Got a good pic with the 90s. I think it's wonderful to grow up with these people. For the last 16 years, we've been a part of each other's lives in one way or the other...

ahaha..my elephant! =P

2007-03-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

It started out boring. Jie si didn't come to school today. I got so restless during econs lecture. Haha. Was like shifting a lot in my seat. Cos it was just a recap on the previous lesson. Met Aly along the corridors after that. We went to the library. I scanned through her whole song list and did a mega bluetooth-ing. Haha. Yays! Got some nice ones. Then, Teck jin saw us after bio and I crashed lit lecture with the both of them. Haha. He's nice and funny. Mom says she'll always remember him for his acting-as-a-gossipy-sissy-boy-on-the-phone-with-amandie last year at camp. Haha. Super funny. Yea me too I think. He told me about filling up the survey form for men's fellowship using eug's name and wanting to join it. Haha. Omg and we were like there's a ladies ministry in church too, so we should join right, but than he said we weren't considered ladies yet... Yea like he's a man already or something. Haha. And he doesn't know dad's sorta the man behind this ministry and has those forms with him. Haha. Wait till I tell him... Oh wells. Never imagined that after attending sunday so many years of sunday school lessons being in the same class as him, we would be in the same school now.

Walked out with Lau and Aly, and then James and Jeremy. James did the handshake-cum-intro thing again to Lau this time. Haha. Met Helga at the mrt. Haha. She's so nice and tall and haha nice. Went to tbp to meet mommy for my eye check up. Eeks. I don't like toric lenses. It's like way bigger than my pupil. Oh wells. Having astig on one eye is just weird. Guess I'll just have to stick with it for the time being. Yeps.

2007-03-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

Monday-190307

Yay! First day of term 2 was fun. Chapel was nice. But somehow I felt like it wasn't really chapel, it was more like a live performance by deb fung. Weiting was super funny, (like when was he ever not?) he said "Like promoting their Cd, right? Come Taiwan Cd 19.90 one copy, buy two get one free..." Haha omg. Oh Xingjie was so sweet. She gave every old sc6-er famous amos cookies just before assembly! Yummy! Ate them all up for recess. The lectures were as usual. Oh but I quite enjoy our gp one. I think we should have more of such lessons, really spurs my interest for the topic! After school, Lau, Ling, Aly, Alex and I hung out at the canteen for a while. Been such a long time since we actually got to sit down together to chat. Had another chocolate bar just to fill up the rest of the space in my tummy before we headed up to the library. Yay! Manage to do some math. Xavier came to join us. Oh oh! I can't tell you how much I love my new ringtone! So happened that I placed my handphone on the table to help like hold down some worksheets and haha, it was so peaceful and quiet till guess what, it went "Who woke snow white up? Who! Who! Who!" in the middle of all that! Yea. It was Ling. Super embarassing la! Ahh... haha. Oh after that, the rain stopped and we all went home.

Tuesday -200307

Ge's gone to taiwan this morning. And I couldn't send him. Cos he had to be at the airport by 430am?! Yea. Want him back asap. Carol passed me the invitation for crescent's 07 council investiture first thing in the morning! Yay! Went for the first and apparently also the last(for me) lecture for the day-bio. After that, Jie si accompanied me to get the pink slip from miss low before we went to the library again because the rest wanted to play cards at the canteen and I didn't really share a similar interest for them. Went through some chem. But still didn't really understand bits of it. Must ask my genius to explain to me some time. Emma, Zhuan and Sam came to join us later after they had geog. Oh then James came over (pretty arubtly but in a good way I guess) from his table to ours to introduce himself. Haha. How unconventional yet interesting at the same time. Oh then I left to meet nicole, carol, carrie and sharyl. We cabbed back to crescent for the investiture. Haha. New president's now Ying Min. Oh and the number of exco members shrank from 13 people to a small group of 8 only now. You know, while I was sitting down there watching the whole programme unfold, it subtly reminds me of all that long hours and hard work we had put in for council, and of course not forgetting all the fun we had together too! After that we all gathered in the mpr for tea reception. Haha. Omg. It was such a touchie affair. All my cute little juniors. Everyone started like hugging everyone else? Oh and my dear dearest Nahdirah! Haha. She gave me a huge shock when she saw me and started screaming! and we were like hugging most endearingly before we knew it! Haha. Love her! Swee Chen danced for me too! She's so cute. Took lots of pics. Oh then I helped to scope all that mountainous leftover bee hoon for the teachers. So fun. Olga started motivating me to scope faster, quick dawn quick quick! Haha.

me and fel

pris, kristie, me

nahdirah! me (my emo girl, she's crying)

me and brenda

Yays! Congrats 06/07 council exco! You've made it thus far and I'm proud of you!=)

Wednesday-210307

Was late to meet Lau and Jen hui this morning cos of the irksome blister near my ankle. It keeps bleeding whenever I start walking. Took some personality test this afternoon. I think it's quite fun leh. I want to do this kind of tests more often. My result shows I'm like the complete opposite from Aly and we're both quite shocked by it. Nevermind, we shall all know why on friday. Went to get my pe attire after school. Amanda and I spent hours in the ladies trying to decide between getting S or M size. After that we went home together. Later in the evening, I went out again to pass a friend a belated birthday gift. Got my make-up strawberry iceblended bubble tea on the way back. Yays!(I spilled mine on the floor last sunday, so sad right? Never got to finish it.) Met Bryan. He is one thin man. Haha.

2007-03-15T10:38:00.000+08:00

Been such a long time since we actually didn't have any homework at all for march holidays? Haha... Anyway, went to shaw centre to get uniforms on tuesday. Unfortunately, there weren't any blouse that's my size left. Nevermind. Just have to get them another day. Then popped by popular to replenish my ever depleting supply of stationery. After that, mommy brought me to ps for lunch. Wanted to get my shoes but wells, as usual, there wasn't enough stock of the one I wanted. Nevermind. Mommy wanted me to try some of the food they have at tcc. So in the end, we each got a coffee(mine was topped with ice-cream! Yum!), marble cheesecake and potato wedges. And we spent our time from 1430 all the way till 1830 before finally decided to go home. Haha. I love that place. I should go there more often. Oh which reminds me. Just realised how much I actually enjoy sitting on a bus and staring outside the window, all the more so when it's raining outside. I could do that for like hours? And just let the bus go round and round forever... Haha okay...nevermind.

Had choir practice last night. I don't know why but I really do prefer singing in a more relaxed environment such as this? Haha. Had a great time with the younger girls. They're always so full energy even at this hour! Makes me get in the mood too. Even though I was dead tired because I got to sleep only at 3am the night before... Haha... Then Terri and Alettia were like asking me so many questions like how much did I think a spit can affect a person? Haha omg la. How very entertaining...

Just came back from my cousin's house. Got to borrow a lot of vcds. Which I'm gonna depend heavily on as my source of entertainment for the next couple of days. Yeps. Haha...

I can't believe that's the reason you came close to me, I thought we were friends. Forget it.

2007-03-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

u Orientation was booo-ring... I think I was over-ly sporting today right? Was actually saboh-ed to lie flat on the red track in the middle of some unfamiliar og and say 'Take me!' Haha... don't like wacko already, I'm always getting it... After that sneaked away with phuong. Saw kai kai, my dear dear childhood mate! Omg. When we saw each other, we were like hugging for so super long!! I really missed her! We used to do everything together, even being fetched by auntie pat from nanyang after school with richard too! The three of us. Oh man. I missed those times when we used to do all sorts of silly stuff together including catching insects(his fav hobby) at keppel club! Haha. Everything except doing homework together. We could never do any work in one another's company! And that happened to displease auntie pat the most too..haha. But things just had to change. And now there's only rich and me during chinese new years and christmases... Oh nevermind nevermind, now she's back ,we'll be together again! Yays!

Anyways, saw tricia too. Great chat with her. She kept moi company till I left at 1330 for crescent! Haha. Went to find Ms Seow!! OMG that darling teacher is seriously the nicest teacher alive?! She was so funny and crappy the whole day with yining and moi! Spent the entire afternoon in her office. Guess what? We've made a pact already, she wants both of us to be her bridemaids when she get married, like how cool is that?! Yays! Oh but her bf's overseas. Bleah. Nevermind, I can wait. Haha.

2007-03-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

Parting and leaving,
When will this ever end?
I don't know if it will be the last day,
But we'll always be true best friends...

We sat at the bleechers for 120minutes talking like we never want everything to end. Not that the three of us will be any further from each other because we'll be going (hopefully, Yays!) to the same school! Or separated by a bridge at the very most.

Came back from mini class outing today. Heard my name being called across the traffic junction on my way home. Guess who? Wanita and Nurul, my two cute as ever junior councillors, making their way to the mrt station!! Haha. Super glad to see them! Guess the new school rules hasn't been enforced yet? Saw that they were still in pe shorts. Yea, which reminds me, I actually demostrated the no-more-than-four-buttons-worth-of-blouse-tucked-out rule to some of my classmates today and everybody totally laughed la! I mean like even they can tell how absolutely idiotic it looks, why can't those disciplinary heads at cres do the same?! Haha...

Anyway, to the following dears, I just wanna say a big THANKS! for being such awesome pals! =P
Alyssa- for offering to walk with me today! It's such a sweet gesture although we didn't manage to, really appreciated the thought =))
Wei Xin- for my cute and mini turtle!! It's hanging above my table =)
Leng Seng- for all the car lifts and ur mini farewell present! Truly one of the nicest and sweetest person I've ever known! =)

Yeps.

2007-03-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

Yays! Went shopping on fri with the usual. Almost couldn't make it though cos it was pouring so super heavily after school. But thankfully, Leng Seng's mom gave moi a lift. Haha...so sweet right? Saved me from becoming drenched. Hmms. For a while. Haha cos in the end, we still got so freaking wet at town. So met the girls up and walked a lot. Managed to get some trash but still didn't get what I really wanted. Sigh. Think its becos of the super damp socks and my dry eyes and wretch headache all put together, even the fried-noodles-in-omelette thingy I had for dinner at this korean stall failed to brighten my day. Bleah. Nevermind. Tomorrow, tomorrow will be a better day... haha

True possession...

2007-02-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

Okay today the world's share of injustice seemed to have piled up on me! Bleah. And to make my life appear a little fairer, just let me recount the whole thing okay? Then you can judge for urself and see if I deserve it! So in the first period and on the first day of the week, i actually got scolded by my bio tutorial lecturer for something which had absolutely nothing to do with me.. was walking out of class tgt with wei xin and xavier and slugging our way to the next lesson. Oh and for your info, very important info, I wasn't even talking, not even making a sound k? Now remember this and let me continue... So then we were right behind two dear friends of mine and they happened to be yakking pretty loudly about bimbo cheers, which haha was really quite funny. But nevermind, as you know, like all typical lao teachers, i think they just can't stand anyone talking except themselves? Cos apparently to them, only they know when, what and how to open their mouths and any other younger person who does that is always doing it plain WRONGLY. Either too loud, too soft, too noisy, too rebellious, too i dunno, everything we do is always wrong! Okay anyway, back to my story.. so she tried asking them to lower their volume but haha they were in the midst of such a funny converstion, it's natural they didn't hear. And yea, i sorta told them to u know lower down a bit too, but you see right, some people are so blind and so eager to find faults with (as they like to call us) youngsters, one more person to niao at makes all the difference, makes them happier.. so guess what?! She called my two friends out in the middle of the road (the one that separates the main school building and the north lodge) and then she had to say, "Dawn, you too, come over.." What the??!! Fine fine, so I walked over and she said something about I was walking behind them and I heard her but I didn't do anything about it and even joined their conversation. Wow. Best man. Like hello? I wasn't the only one walking behind them, wasn't the only one who heard her ( i mean xin and xavier heard too) and in fact, the only one who even passed her message to them but it had to be me! Had to be my fault?! What in the world la! Talk also my fault, don't talk ALSO my fault! Perfect!

Oh wells. Never felt more wronged in my life then this. Forgive me for this rebellious and whiny post, I really don't blame my classmates at all. It's that grr.. person. Okay nevermind. I'd just assume it's the generation gap problem.. but seriously, I'm beginning to think JC teachers have a big big problem... or maybe just those in this school! Okay, I shall try real hard ta tolerate this...

Oh anyway, something horrid happened on the mrt today and I really really regret that I didn't think of doing more, didn't think of getting out of my comfort zone to make a difference. Feeling really bad about it. Sigh...

2007-02-23T20:44:00.000+08:00

Yipee! Had swim pe again yesterday. And played basketball twice this week! Haha...we spent the entire 2 hrs worth of free periods yesterday playing haha but I think I laughed a lot more than actually shooting the hoops! Super super funny! Thanks to weiting la. He kept making fun of my lousy basketball skills haha..yea he's one pro at basketball thou. Oh but I fell sick after playing and swimming... slight chill haha..but nevermind only that my bin's brimmed filled with tissues now and I have to clear it soon... Wei xin treated me to fried mushrooms twice too! Yays! Nono actually she forced me to eat them haha...but they're really nice! Should go to the cafe there to try them sometime again...

Haha and oh wells, today I finally figured out I've been talking to 3 persons using the same handphone at one time. What the toot la! No wonder I hadn't a clue why this person's personality changed so rapidly, like one moment he's telling me something real funny and the next, he started scolding me. Haiyo! Big headache...

Tomorrow's party-ing at auntie patricia's house for cny again. And I'm way prepared to get bored. I always am every year anyway..bleah... Yeps.

2007-02-21T22:42:00.000+08:00

Haha..someone did this for me and i looove it! Really pretty eh?

Okay let's see, Chinese New Year's been good thou it was also dotted with many agonizing moments... So went to church first on Sunday. Then to grandma's house. Met up with my dear cousins who never fail to make me laugh... Oh then took lots of pictures till my jaw really ache, but i think it's worth it la. Haha. Ge took the three of us to tiong bahru plaza to watch a movie-Just Follow Law. It's super funny, if not for the neck strain we suffered after that, I'd say I totally enjoyed the outing. Haha you see actually we booked tickets way earlier but we arrived late to collect our tickets and the cinema was so packed, only first front rows were available..yea..oh neverminds.

Second day was hit an okay. Went to the Joses, Lucas and Matty's house. But the usual, it was crammed filled with guys, so I ended up watching them play computer games. Haha. Then to Auntie YinFan's house, got to talk to Jemima dear. Really sweet girl. Oh then to Elizabeth, Grace and Bonkie's house. Man, I love the way their house is designed. Yea... Finally to Auntie Grace's house, you know the one at newton area? Haha yea. Oh and the most finally, Uncle Ming's house where we just idled about till some of the 85s came to join us. Haha. Johnny showed us his cheerleading stunts, real cool. Mark, Timo and Peide kept having this bicker with Bernie something about calling themselves 'true men'. Haha..super hilarious! Oh and we actually squished all the teenages in the living room to watch that silly silly nine o clock show on channel 8. Haha... yeps. That just about surmarises my cny and once again, it's back to school...

Please stop doing all these to yourself...cos you're only gonna end up hurting yourself and all those who love you...Tell me what to do...

2007-02-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

Yay! Some cousins from Malaysia came over last night and our whole family brought them to ding dai feng (the junction 8 branch) to eat! Then to swensons to grap some ice-cream. Yums! I think Huey Feng jiejie is so pretty! And nice too! Going to meet them again tomorrow, maybe go catch a movie or something...

Anyway, something really really dumb happened to me again. Guess it's because I'm such a blur toot! Yea. Got a call this morning and I really thought it was you! Was still so dazed cos I just woke up.. So I just started talking a lot... should have realised it wasn't you from the way he answered my questions! But I didn't till this irritating idiot actually asked for my age! Yes, he did!

"...Then how old are you?"
"Huh? Wait a minute, who are you?"
"Aiya, you see la, didn't even ask who I am then just talk talk talk.."
"Hang on, you're not ___??!! Omg then who are you? I don't know you! When did I talk to you?!"
"Yes you do la, got talk before, but I forgot your name. I'm ___(can't rmb)"
"WHAT??!! I don't know you!"
"hello? hello?"
*Beep*

I got so freaked out I just hung up. Luckily I did. He's obviously some big trickster, think he can fool me huh! Hrrumph! Really, how much dumb-er can a person like me get la. Why am I always the one who gets punk-ed?! This is so unfair! I'm not picking up any more calls from private numbers! Bleah! Yes I bet all of you are laughing at this blur toot here! Felt super weird la... you girls better take my advice and not get fooled like me after seeng this, ya? Haha...

Oh anyway, I'm proud to announce that my room's spick and span now! Haha... oh and Happy Lunar New Year everyone! Love ya folks! =)

p.s Lau, when are you gonna collect your chocs from me?!

2007-02-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

Your smile lit my world...

Had some cny celebrations today, but it was mostly self-entertain la, so haha... Oh and I actually got the ang bao that promised some great gift in exchange! Yay! Went to find mommy straight after school cos she's been nagging at me for being so last minute in my cny shopping, oh wells, I hate shopping a lot but decided it's really late enough. Better be today or never! Haha she got me sushi for lunch to put me in the right mood and then at about 1.15pm, we started hunting for stuff all the way till about 5pm! Haha...a rather fruitful trip but I feel pretty bad actually, cos I think I spent more than two hundred bucks for two sets of clothing and the third pair of shoes for the year all in ONE single day...bleah! And made mommy bring me down from plaza sing all the way to far east plaza.. Oh wells so for all the effort, I treated mommy to the sundae pie at burger king and a coke okay! (Haha.. okay okay, I ate most of it though.) Well at least I tried... *grinz*

2007-02-15T20:39:00.000+08:00

Have you ever bothered asking me how I feel? Have you ever cared if it would hurt me? Sometimes I think this is just so unfair. People just get so used to showing me their moods, they don't care how I might take it anymore...

Oh just the other day, when all things bad seemed to happen all at the same time, I got chided by this irritating bus inspector. Took 198 (or was it 196) back home when I noticed the clouds were so grey, as if reflecting my mood and that wretched headache of mine, and wells, nobody did anything to make my day better. But nevermind, it couldn't get worse when this middle-age bus inspector boarded the bus and wells, obviously when you see him, you would automatically take out your ez-link card and let him do his job right? Fine, so I did. But you see, I thought he was still checking another person's card first, so I conveniently placed mine on my file (which was lying on my lap) so that he could just take it anytime he wanna when he's done with that person's. And in case you were wondering, the position I was sitting in was like facing him, yo u know the kind of seats that have 2 rows facing each other with a small passage way for commuters to walk? Yea.. As you can see, I was super alarmed when he turned around and just stared at me. Like hello? He saw my card there and he just stared with that pair of accusing eyes like I didn't pay my bus fare and I did something so grave it would be the end of the world. Asked him if anything was the matter and he went like: "People check card for you you don't expect them to take card from you right? Hand it over to me mah.." Alright~ Best man. Like hello? Will it kill you if you just took it by yourself? Must hand it to you properly, best with both hands and head bowed or knees kneeled to the ground then you would be satisfied right?!! I bet they will say, as they always do anyway, nowadays the youngsters ah, no respect for my job ah. Fine fine. My fault my fault, it always is anyway...

Whew. Fortunately thou, these grey clouds cleared when I got the long-awaited call...yayness! Met up with you and talked for hours. And those clouds literally cleared. As in in the sky and in my head! Really cheered up a lot after talking to you.. Haha... actually, simple things can make me happy. And I really thank God for that...

Anyways, you know, if you read the daily bread, you would have came across this. Found it useful and decided to share it. In case you've been feeling melancholy like I have the past few days... cheer up and smile =)

List of Rules for Happier Living:
1. Give something away.
2. Do a kindness.
3. Give thanks always.
4. Work wih vim and vigor.
5. Visit the elderly and learn from their experience.
6. Look intently into the face of a bby and marvel.
7. Laugh often - it's life's lubricant.
8. Pray to know God's way
9. Plan as though yo uwill live forever - you will!
10. Live as though today is your last day on earth.

Yeps.

2007-02-14T19:19:00.000+08:00

Every moment spent with you is happiness...

Yay! Happy Valentine's Day everyone! It was not much of a difference from crescent cos we exchanged presents again, only that over here, I could really feel the vibrance of love in the air..haha..super cool. Got so many sweets and chocs, think i'm gonna get tooth decay if i keep them all to myself, haha..so dad, mom and ge's gonna benefit from my sack of goodies! I think the flowers were the best thou, got my favourite sunflower again! Yay! Thanks to si jay. But my roses got stolen...haha..for an emergency case, ah wells. At least it was for a good cause and I won't get to see them die, which is the saddest part.. so nevermind then...

Yeps. Gotta rush my bio tutorial.. But before that, Jesus loves you and I love you too! =)

2007-02-11T18:23:00.000+08:00

I'm tired of clinging on hopelessly...it's just so different...

2007-02-03T10:14:00.000+08:00

Ohh my goodness!! It's been such an eventful week, with lau's birthday and all. Now where shall I start..kay..from dotsy lau..

Thurday had swim pe. Super funny cos I had a strange tan at my neck, think it looks like my head had been severed and plopped onto another body or smth. We got to refresh our memories on kicking freestyle. After pe, rushed to shower. U know the showers are like so so crappy?! There weren't even hooks to hang my stuff, so I guess everything got really wet. Yea. OKay, then lau, ling, aly, jen hui and i cabbed home to drop our excess baggage and then zomed to PARAGON!! Yay! Feasted at ding dai feng( I got it correct! right?). I'd say that was the most enjoyable time I had with you people! And the best part of it was that lau didn't even guess what we were up the WHOLE time, till we had to break the news to her..someone can be super retarded la...oh wells, anyway I thought we laughed so much and made so much noise, those people around us kept turning to see what these wild half-acians-half-crescentians were up to or smth! Oh and I counted, I sneezed some 15 times the minute I sat down, dunno..haha. After the sumptous dinner, went shopping a little, bought smth, only to be put down by my mom that I'm even more auntie than her..fine fine..auntie then auntie, I can live with it! Haha..went home only at 9pm. Didn't know night shopping at orchard could be so haha fun?! Yea..

Friday is nicest, too! Okay everything is nice. Every day is nice. Pissed lau off by pretending to rush off for some important thing, refused to tell her..haha..then rushed off to get a cake at tiong bahru plaza. Had to act like a tour guide cos he's never been there before and was made to walk the entire shopping centre a few times before he made the decision okay! See my 'ku(3) xin(1)'?! Yea..came back home to sing the song for lau and then marched down to the park. Oh my gosh, I just lovee the park! The old swings were gone and the new ones creak a lot! But it's still fun! Was super windy there..chatted and chatted a lot..think it was never ending, if mom hadn't called, probably would have forgotten about dinner..haha..

Anyhow, hoped u had the most wonderful 17th birthday girl! (haha..better appreciate it, next year maybe not so good already!) And for goodness sake, can u show a bit more gratitude and stop SPAMMING my tagboard?! Haha..

Yea..just came back from a stroll with bro..nice to walk a little and appreciate nature. Don't know, I'm super confused now..don't know what to do, don't know what to say..bleah!

2007-01-27T11:29:00.000+08:00

Oh there goes another week of fun. Went out with the dotty lau to plaza sing yesterday. Haha. Kinda our favourite hunt right? Met Kel. Before I forget, thank you so much dear for the present, it's lovely! Yes yes, I shall wear it=) Were looking at some guitars and strings. Bumped into some familiar faces, but didn't see the rest of the 90s anyway. So lau and I were like window shopping, really took up most of our energy.Haha..oh lau help! My nails are so screwed! Anyway, we went to eat sushi after that. Didn't know I was starving till I put the first sushi into my mouth. Hm mm! Yummy! Was forced to go to Tiongs, which officially made me, or rather us, broke! Haha.

Yep. Was looking at some bio stuff today. You know, if you really take that subject seriously and study each structure and function that's in the cell, I can't imagine why anyone would deny the very existence of God? It's really amazing how each and every organelle's been created in such detail to suit even the tiniest function for the whole body to work! Talk about evolution? No way dude, don't even think about it!

Oh wells. Gotta get busy=)

2007-01-23T22:31:00.000+08:00

Oh hoho. The weekend has been great. But something really funny happened to me and till now, I just can't figure out who did it. Yea. Last Sunday, somebody msg me saying something like hey dawn, this is silk. I'm using my friend's hp becos my batt's flat. Did you recieve the timestable for monday? I think I lost mine! Yea. So I replied this person and stuff. Then on monday morning, I asked silk if she's found her timestable already and guess what?! She said it's been with her all along and she never even msg me anything at all during the weekend! Hahaha..nice prank, whoever did that.

Today, I almost died doing pe. Had this near vomiting feeling the whole time during chinese. Yea, and cj was totally mocking me about being so..so unfit? Like who's the one that's been complaining about muscle ache since friday?! Haha.

Anyway, yay! I got my new guitar case already! Gonna bring it along tmr, I think.=) Oh and I wanna watch West Side Story! Hmm.wonder if I should..

2007-01-19T20:09:00.000+08:00

Wanted to go back to crescent yesterday, but my shopping mood got the better of me and we headed towards orchard instead. But before that, something really irksome happened. I mean like what's with girls and their ability to stoop so low for guys? Eeks! The xiao-hai-ben-ben guy walked past us at the bus-stop and almost immediately, these 3 girls actually shouted "Goodbye Shaw..!*giggles*" Eeks! Okay okay. Thought that just made my hair rise by a few inches. But nevermind, I shall try to be more understanding and impartial, really, it's a natural evolutionary and instinctive behavior of adolescent girls, right? Anyone wanna say goodbye to me?

Anyway, back to reality. Alighted near far east plaza. Alex wanted a notebook and got it. Actually didn't want her to get it so we could walk around a bit more. Oh but wells. Then to kino. And I found the very thing for my beloved hp. Yay! Oh we went home after alex got her file. But we couldn't have chosen a better time to go home. It was raining dogs and cats!! Hmm..wonder if it's got anything to do with the real Rain coming to singapore? And I think lau and I were too lazy to get our brolies out. So we soaked in the rain. And yucks! My whole uniform was super transparent!! It was like bathing in front of so many..!! Arghs! Lau still splashed water at moi's face! Then this kind old man wanted to share his broli with us, but aiya, we were so wet, didn't matter anymore. Fortunately I didn't stay too far. Poor lau got most of the rain. Haha but it was super funny...

Oh and Yay!! I've got a reply from the kids at salvation army! =)) Maybe I should go visit them again one day, anyone wanna accompany? =)

2007-01-15T20:06:00.000+08:00

Don't worry about people who take pleasure in gossipping about others. Because Our Father looks at the heart. Fear the Lord.

"The tongue of the wise commends knowledge,
but the mouth of the fool gushes folly.
The eyes of the Lord are everywhere,
keeping watch on the wicked and the good."

-Proverbs 15:2-3

Smile sister and delight in the Lord not in men. =D

2007-01-14T10:28:00.000+08:00

Been a busy week...

Tuesday, went shopping with og to shop for materials before rushing to esplanade to catch My Fair Lady. Really nice musical! If this is already so good, I can't wait for Phantom of the Opera!! Anyway, the day didn't end there. After the musical, had to rush back once more to finish decorating the cloths for our ogls. And the clock struck 1am. Bed time.

Wednesday, just idled with og, got people to sign the cloths, exchanged music and crapped a lot.

Thursday, headed to Jurong with og. Wanted to ice-skate but it disappointed us, so we went to chervons instead to bowl. And there and then, everyone went berserk! Those who usually bowled well didn't strike anything while those who never even bowled before actually striked every pin down! Amazing.

Friday. Celebrated a birthday. Got deserted by some meanies and had to go home thyself! Yep.

2007-01-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

Orientation is finally over! Whew! It was so crazy, once is enough! Haha or at least not so frequent! Don't want to get burnt too often. The layer of soap, starch, water, mud that covered me actually preserved some parts of my skin from being burnt under the hot sun. You know, I'm really not sure if that's good or bad cos in the end, I think I looked like someone cooked a burnt chicken real badly! Yea. And Liling was a fried lobster, if you even fry them in the first place. But yep! Anyways, like almost the whole choir exco and council exco ended up at ac. Pretty cool. Which reminds me, We're all in this together..tralala *high school musical heralds; dawnnie prances around with arms rollie-pollieing about*

I think the longer I stay there, the crappier I get. Okok. There's a lot more to orientation, but I rather tell you, if you ask me. Writing it out is sian. Yep.

2007-01-02T17:49:00.000+08:00

Okies. Been up and packing ever since I got better. Went to watch curse of the golden flower at cineleisure. If you ask me, unless you are a jay chou fan like lau, a gongli/yun fat fan like erms..me, or you are a guy who loves bloody battle scenes, DON'T WATCH! Really.

Didn't go for watchnight in the end cos of flu and had a gathering with my relatives instead. So I guess I missed the chance to play with little juniors from church. Eug actually asked me to go help out like way way long ago but guess I'm not really needed anyway. Oh wells.

Went to fetch bro from the camp. Then to this far far away place for prata. Guess who we met?! Some of the 85s, alex and yiling. Wow. This world is small. Oh. In the end, we went to eat dian xin instead cos the prata man sure took his time...

Anyway, just for your information, all these events aren't recorded in chronological order. Yea.

So school's starting tomorrow. OH! I can't wait to take mrt to school! Twoot! MRT is nice. I like MRT.

2006-12-30T20:44:00.000+08:00

SLR was nice, if only my ears weren't blocked the WHOLE time. Yep. It still is blocked. Doctor said it may be because my impending flu. Either that or I'm just audio-impaired for the time being. Oh wells. Just speak a little louder, okay? It's really not a nice feeling to be half deaf!

Been sleeping a lot these days cos of the medicine which makes me feel drowsy.

2006-12-26T11:56:00.000+08:00

Whee~

Christmas was fantastic! Went for family group meeting on Sunday evening and I was actually prepared to get very bored. But..thankfully, I discovered the wonders of COUNTER STRIKE! Twoot! Omg. Now I know why guys get hooked on it. Okay, mom won't like this. Really, once I got my chance to play, Bryan, Daryl, Mel ko and I were already taking turns before you can say alskdfghalhg;dafh! Of course, that was not before Timo, Jerry, Daniel and Matty had their laugh at me! Oh wells, luckily I was in a good christmasy mood then.

Dinner was nice and sumptous enough, with bro practically serving me a bit of everything on the table. Then Mel and I watched X-man korean serial on youtube. Haha. I know. Dawnnnie is so not dawnnie anymore. Liling must be proud.

Gift exchange was nice. Got a couple of good stuff. But it ended really early. Like the earliest in last 16 yrs cos more than half the whole family group were involved in choir the nest day. And the rest in the skit.

Alright. Just realised I haven't packed my bag for slr...got to run!

2006-12-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

I'm half-way with my Christmas thingy! Yay! But I hope you people will like it cos I really did put in a lot of effort. Thks Lau for keeping moi company..and yes, I'll try to get the restaurant name right, erms..tell me again?

So anyway, went shopping today. Put me into a better mood, no doubt.

Okie, so Christmas is super near. Time to do a little reflection. I think this holiday has been great! Because it's true when they say it's better to give then to receive. I've had my portion of fun, good cheer and happy memories. So I'm really satisfied. A genuine smile on everyone's face would really be the best present I can recieve this Christmas! =)) Yeps!

And of course, my long-awaited camp grp picture! Yays!

2006-12-22T18:46:00.000+08:00

Nothing much today. But I am very very irritated. I just got sabo-ed into doing something stupid! Oh great!

I must not appear like I'm overly enthusiatic because I really am NOT!
I must not appear like I'm overly enthusiatic because I really am NOT!
I must not appear like I'm overly enthusiatic because I really am NOT!
I must...

Oh man. I don't like the sound of this! Arrrgh!!

2006-12-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

Loads of things happened this week and I'm really happy about it. Now, where shall I start...

Went to church on Tue at 11.30am to meet up for the salvation army thing. It started out really gloomy because of the rain and all that. Lunch was good. Got to know some older people who are really nice too. And I must say, if there's anyone I really admire, it'd be yaofeng. He actually came all the way from johor just for this chance to help out at the home and give the kids an eventful day and share the love of Christ... So anyway, the kids from about ages 6 to 12 were shove into our care for the next 1 and 1/2 hours. And I seriously enjoyed every minute with them! We played duck duck goose, wacko, sitting-down-captain's-ball! Erms..there's no age limit for these games right..

On Wed, the dutiful daughter went shopping with mom to taka to get christmas presents! Yay! We combed almost every store there and my back ached a lot after all the walking. Then zoommedd off to church once more for carolling at Breakthrough Missions. It's actually a place where ex-convicts or once-drug-addicts have converted and put up there for the next 18 mths while learning a skill. The place also caters to their spiritual needs and they actually undergo a pretty disciplined life there. So we sang songs for them and then got to talk to them for a bit. I was a little terrified at first..like who wouldn't if you see big people with tattoos that cover up the entire arm?! But no worries, it was one enriching experience cos they shared their lives to us and it really touches me to see how God has worked in their lives. I really wanted to give them a pat on their back and say, "Good job guys! Yea. But wells, in Hokkien? Nah. Maybe next time.

That's not the end. Today went movie-ing with Lau and Liling. And I've decided. If I have a rabbit, I'll call it Eragon. Seriously, it sounds sophisticated eh? Oh but remind me when I really get a rabbit. Cos it won't be anytime soon..

Anyways, so many things happened today, I'll say it all in one breadth okay? Here's how it went: *INHALES*Got-dragged-out-of-bed-at-7.55am-by-mom-to-go-for-breakfast-at-Bukit-Puma-with-cousins-took-bus-back-took-mrt-to-somerset-with-Lau-the-three-of-us-were-totally-in-a-shopping-mood-today-bought-a-couple-of-things-met-Natasha-and-Cindy!!-And-the-cute-little-girl-beside-her!-She-gave-me-a-high-five-O-K-then-we-trooped-down-to-Da-Ding-Feng-restaurent-for-high-tea-then-shop-more-crap-more-until-5.55pm! *INHALES* Whew..

I think that's it for now. I wanna sing a song..can you hear my voice...??

Feliz Nevida
Feliz Nevida
Feliz Nevida
Propero Ano i feci-da...

2006-12-18T23:14:00.000+08:00

Yay!!! Today, we baked bbbbbbrrroooowwnnniiieess!! Yum Yum. Actually wanted to bake them for the kids tomorrow but..sigh..I can only blame myself for chosing the the wrong-est people to bake with. Really. Such **talented people. First, Lau had parallex error, can't even measure 1/4 cup of water and 1/3 water. Never mind that..crack egg also got zero standard. Then, we took more than 1/2 hour to stir the mix. Still, I bet I saw some powder here and there..and egg shells, if not because the mix is so brown. Oh well. While we send it for heating, we got bored. So I started teaching Lau and and Aly WEI QI. Haha. That was seriously even more boring cos my counters filled almost half the whole board already and Lau's was still 'dead'. Sigh. Okay.

Our brownies turned out a brown mess, which actually tasted quite nice. But it looked ugly. Oh nevermind. In the end, we played cluedo like 5 times. Out of which I won 3 and Lau 2 and Aly, NIL! Buahaha. The Duck just Don't get it!

So wed, shopping for christmas and new handphone. And thur, movie eragon with clique and shopping at heeren for thyself. Yay!

2006-12-17T20:23:00.001+08:00

It's been a long week. If you've been thinking why your dear dawnnie was mia-ing (like darling cindy), it's because I've been at youth camp 06! Yay! And I think i'm suffering from youth-camp-jetlag. No seriously. The whole camp was enough to drain me mentally and physically, not including the bruises generously inflicted by danielle. And the fact that my group had NO group leader. Guess who did all the dirty job?!! Absolutely fantastic man. Okay, at least my group members were fine. Very young, cute and small. Will post some pics when I get my hands on them. Terri, Danielle Gozali, Danielle Ang, Lidya, Joshua, Kennard, Joel and Peide. It was really nice talking to some of the younger boys because they really made me laugh during dinner. I think I ate more air than rice. S.H.E boys..haha..my favourite.

Oh..As much as Wei En's been keeping up with his reputation for being long-winded, this is the first time I almost fell asleep during the theme talk. Nevertheless, it gave me a new insight of God's word.

Right. Will update ah-don digest when my pics are delievered! Now..Zzzz-monster is just too strong.

2006-12-06T11:54:00.000+08:00

Guess it's been awhile. Many things happened along the week. But there's one story, yes one story in particular, that can surmarise yesterday's outing to vivo.

Warning: The characters and the story are entirely fictitious and should they resemble anyone, dead or alive, it is entirely coincidental and based only on the author's imagination.

Now, we are ready to begin. So, like all fairy tale stories, this begins with

Once upon a time...

There was a rich taitai.

She was so e***, children would run to hide under their mother's skirts when they heard her name. Haha. Okay. She was 007. *Bond music heralds*
Now, people from all over the world feared her...because erms...because she bullies innocent children. Yes yes, that's right.

Through her devious and scheming ways, she scots free every single time. And so, attributes to her pompous nature; luring people, even challenging them to catch her. If they can. There, she strikes poses to suggest such inconceivable behavior. (Do not be decieved by her seemingly "reflective" poise nor her "sweet" manner. *Clouds and raindrops added for effect*)

But of course, sky net grey grey, lost but not missed! (Some chinese idiom I always write in my compo to suggest bad guys always get caught eventually, yep!) One day, a brave hero took up the challenge, hence, the start of a violent battle. 007 put up a strong fight. They fought for days. After days...

and days after days...

...and finally, 007 ended up like this...

She was fined, and ordered to do 100hrs of community service.

Upset as she was, a broom was shove into her hands. Thus, begin the ardous task of cleaning...

In her 99th hr of service, she was released on good behaviour. As you can see, here she is, showering a "baby" with adoring smiles, gently cooing it to sleep! A really big change, I'd say!

And so, 007 was released earlier than expected for good conduct. And as usual, ah-don digest gets fresh news for its avid readers, a correspondent was sent to investigate.

"So what are your views on being jailed?"
"OH! I love the feeling, love the people, love myself! OOh! Absolute-ly wonderful. I wanna thank my Boss, especially for givinme a chance..my friends, my family..."
"I'm sure they'll be delighted to see that you appreciate them so much. Now moving on, what are your interests? Of which you would like to pursue now that you've been granted freedom?"
"Oh! I wanna see my friends, my family, my..."

"And that's all we have today. ah-don digest, Deedee reporting, tall-tales land." (Uninteresting parts of conversation have been omitted with viewer's best interests at heart.)

As they say, all things end well ends well, oh someting like that. There she goes, off the spain, I think..Bon voyage =)

THE END.

Yay!!! I did it! I did it, laurel! Managed to weave all the pics into a story dedicated to Aly! Yay!

2006-11-29T21:26:00.000+08:00

I once saw a science documentary on TV. It says that when one relaxes, time passes faster because the brain relaxes too. Yep. I agree. And I love it. Zoooom..it's about one week since prom. Went out a couple of times.

Yesterday was musical evening. Absolutely enjoyed it. Liling's sister was one easy gal to look after. At first, she was so quiet, it scared me. Guess she warmed up to me after a while. Man, I wish I had a younger sibling. Well, I'd say the choir improved a lot! They sounded really good. Oh, not forgetting the band. I think the main band sounded strange at the start, but they gradually picked up. But the Alumini Band was Fantastic. Really. I felt the songs come alive as they played. Yep. Guess experience counts a lot.

Watched Happy Feet today with the usual. It was nice. Considering the humanitarian effort the movie is trying to appeal to. Guess the last bit about the UN part just shows how all-talk-no-action people really are when it boils down to protecting mother nature. It's a pity. Oh, anyway, it was mega rush today. Went to get snacks from carrefour and sweets from lollywood within 20min just in time for the show. But before that, we kept getting on the wrong floor. Like floor 1: aly rushed out, we waved at her and called her, "Come Back!! Wrong floor!" "Huh? This floor wat!!" Floor B1: "A? Not this level...one floor down issit?" Floor B2: "Gosh! Wrong floor too!!" "NO! It's the floor above." "See, I told you I was right!"(*sigh* ego!)

Yea. Three geog students and one hist student. Not bad. Not bad at all.

Went to Swensons after the movie. Shared a spagetti and apple crumble. Think I was the ONLY one with a full stomach here. Then to carrefour again to get bread and A lemon for mom. Too bad they didn't sell ONE lemon. So got five instead. Oh, but before that, guess when I'm tired, I become dangerously semi-concious. Entered carrefour by the wrong gate. Almost got a chiding from guard. But wells, didn't care much already. Like I saw his mouth moving but heard nothing.

Took the cheapo bus back with laurel. That ends the day. Maybe swimming tomorrow? We'll see...

2006-11-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

PROM NITE!

Haha..guess there should be a couple of ppl waiting for moi to blog about this. Wells, where can I start? From the beginning...

Had a hair appointment at Takashimya by Kanebo in the afternoon. Me cousins and mom accompanied me there. Haha...it was pretty embarassing cause the three of them just stood and watch while I got everything done. Yea. Simply stood and watch. My makeup was done by a Japanese make-up artist. He was one good pro! Did you know that just my foundation powder alone had like 4 layers? My lipstick had 3, and my eyeshadow another 3 plus mascara! Yep! He took 1.5 hours to get it done. Oh but very amusingly, he asked if I could speak Jap. Guess I was one of his youngest customers for the day. Nice person.

Yep! My hair was done pretty quickly. BUT, there was one slight problem. There was this lady, I don't even know if she qualified to be one, beside me getting her hair done too. And she was absolutely irritating. She acted as if she owned the whole place and kept criticising the poor hairdresser. Something like, oh, here too propped up,i don't like. Next moment, oh, here too flat, i don't like. Seriously, can somebody stuff her mouth?!

Took a cab home after that. Then it was time to dress up. I screwed the nail polish..haha..never had much affinity with it anyway. Met laurel and zoomed to holiday in. Yay! And now, the long-awaited pictures...

A glimpse of my glam life. Haha..
The five of us plus Mrs. Yip.

Miss Lim (fav. bio teacher), Liling, Kel, Me

Cindy dear and Moi

Smart and nice China Scholars, Liling, Me and Laurel

Yes yes, best for last. My two beautiful ladies..(Don't ask me wat they are doing, cos I don't know either!)

2006-11-22T07:50:00.000+08:00

Whee~

Movie Marathon was fun alright, a pity it didn't last long. I'd call it INSTALLMENT ONE of the entire marathon..haha. Armed with chips and apple juice from Tanglin mall, we headed down to Liling's house. I think we watched four movies at one go: Never Been Kissed, Mulan 2, High School Musical and of course, the very own self-produced Laurel v.s Ah Fei showdown! Haha..

Anyway, something happened yesterday made me reflect quite a bit on myself. Okay, lots of things happened, but this one in particular. I don't quite know what went wrong with me. I'm beginning to feel that sometimes my sub-concious is taking control of my concious. Which basically means, I say things that I didn't know why I did but end up saying it because the reason's already in my heart.

So, here's how it is: Yesterday, on the way to Liling's house, we met two caucasians outside Tanglin-a lady and a man. The lady appeared shock that the five of us were speaking English amongst ourselves and pointing at us, she exclaimed: "You speak English? Great! Can you tell me where Botanic Gardens is?" (or something like that) and "Good job! Thanks!" after we told her.

After she left us, guess what I did! I don't know why I was so agitated by the "You speak English?!" phrase, an outburst of "What do you mean we speak English? Of course we do! H-e-l-l-o? Singapore is a multi-racial society and the only reason why we ALL can communicate with one another is none other than the 'power' of English!" just came out. Yes yes..I said that. Bleah. Then, my guilty concious thingy pricked me. I felt really bad for saying that, especially when Aly said she thinks that lady heard us. Okay, me.

Well, thinking back right, I probably didn't really want to say that out loud, but I did because I thought it was mean of her to demean Singaporeans just because we aren't like them. And you know, the word Asians don't really form a great impression in their minds. Yea. Maybe I was being over sensitive. But all the same, I've learnt from it. Now you see, how small things can bug me like that.

As requested, personal messages eh? Haha. Cindy and your great idea.

Cindy: Maes??!! I see, you made urself a mouse too? So we can communicate eh? Haha..OK wait, I ain't a mouse! Stop it cindy! Look what you are transforming me into!! Bleah!

Kellie: Yay! Lavish your present with love! Got regular inspector's checks, okie! Haha..

2006-11-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

okie. Finally decided that I was in the mood to pen something down.

Loads of things happen last few days. Really glad about them. Ahh..listening to Hady's song: "You gave me wings" (or somthing like that, yea! I love that song!) Anyways, I'd say fri's outing was incredible..with laurel(a.k.a slow/xiao long bao) and of course, alyssa. Went to watch step-up! Omg! I wanna get tha DVD when it's out!! Yep! So we went shopping for kellie's present, hope you'll love it, girl! Then talk, talk and talk..nice, I love talking, especially with people-who-can-never-get-things-done-after-one-hour of crap..haha..

Hmm..next day to Botanic Garden with my family, concidentally met Hil May. Nice walk. Okie, my bro got FIVE irritating mosquitoes on his leg after that! And can you imagine that?! I mean, I was seriously walking beside him and buzzing to him about Step-Up and I didn't even get bitten by a single one?!! Let's just say it all boils down to: Sweet blood!

Macs on sunday with amandie. Great talk with her...haha..except for the seriously stuffy air-con which made me feel like vomitting, it was nice alright.

MONDAY!! Yay! Okay, yes I got played out because my dear cousins didn't wanna go swimming with moi although they promised to yesterday. But wells, all I can say is, I should have known! Blah! Anyways, went to shop for shoes in the afternoon. OKie, I seriously DON"T like shopping!! It took my mom and I 4 hours and a walk down the whole street of orchard to get the right pair! I didn't know high heels can be so ex. I mean, saw one at 299.90. Shakes head, put back on shelf, smile at salesgirl, walks off. Finally settled on one about one-quarter that price. Yay!!

And finally tomorrow, it's our LONG AWAITED MOVIE-MARATHON!! Yay!! Kellie and I've been talking about it since like end of last year sec three, right kellie? Can't wait for it! See ya folks!

2006-10-13T16:42:00.000+08:00

Touching. Memorable. Satisfaction.

Throughout the Farewell Assembly, memories of my four years there just whirled in my head. Actually, our class video and the songs almost made me cry. Oh no..I'm gonna miss Crescent and everyone, especially my choir juniors, very much. Eunice and Gail gave me a Precious Moments photo album which really touched my heart. I'm gonna fill it up with all our choir pics! Haha..

Yea. So I guess farewell everyone. Till we meet again next year when we embrace our good results with great joy, all the best to 4C1! You guys made my days at Crescent even better and enjoyable!

I AM NOT A MOUSE!

2006-08-09T15:03:00.000+08:00

Went to Jack's Place for lunch in celebration of National Day and of course, a be-early birthday bash for my dear bro! Nice ambience, nice food...but seriously, I couldn't taste anything! Having a terrible flu...sigh. Anyways, someone emailed this to me.. haha

2006-08-04T17:50:00.000+08:00

Well, I don't know how much unhappiness can actually pile up all onto one person only...

Maybe you don't know
Maybe you don't see
Maybe you don't have the right
Whatever, you are wrong...

Maybe you are selfish
Maybe you are just unkind
Maybe you are false
Whatever, the hurt will never go...

Maybe you don't deserve
Maybe you are blind
Maybe you think too highly of yourself
Whatever, the false will corrode you...

Maybe one day,
one day, you will
see,
know,
understand,
the truth before you.

Until then, my friend,
I will love you and
I will never forget.

2006-07-21T18:56:00.000+08:00

This week's been...

Arrgh! Why must zhang laoshi change my place?! And now I must be sqaushed between them! such an awkward position! Sigh! And why must we still have lessons when express people have free periods? Why must Mrs Yip keep talking about switching places to the back? Why is my room so messy? Why am I always thrust into dancing events? Why must we study agriculture? Why?!!
O wells, so such for the bad stuff. At least there were good stuff to make up for it! Else...

Today, wow, 7 tests over and another 8 more coming. Wore an Indian costume for racial harmony, haha, looked into the mirror, "Mommy! Am I really Chinese?!" OKay, must be part of some DNA mutation. But it was fun alright. (",) Happy Racial Harmony Day to all! (Sorry! Must be ss propaganda that's grinding into me)

2006-07-11T16:33:00.000+08:00

Yes yes..busy busy busy..finally, or should I say sadly, it's over!

Today's council investiture gave me feelings I never had for a long long long time - freedom and joy! There was fun, there were embarrassing moments, there was sadness and there was definately ache (as in the feet..been running about in court shoes since 11.15...very sore now)! Yep! But while I kinda miss the girls in my team, I thought this marked both the end of my council journey in crescent and the real beginning of a new batch of excited sec threes taking over! I'm so happy for them, for this journey has certainly been one of many great experiences and learning process..I am confident that they will suceed us smoothly and share these moments of joy as we did...

Anyways, so we had to put up a dance, like again. And it as super humilating because we danced in our stocking okay! Seriously, I almost fell when I glided across the stage and Liling said I didn't jump high enough! YEA! Our entrance was a huge high jump!

Oh wells, but everything else went somewhat according to plan..so I guess it was as good as it gets. As the saying goes, a picture says more than a thousand words, guess I'll sum up with these:

2006-06-27T18:33:00.000+08:00

You are holy
You are mighty
You are worthy
Worthy of praise
I will follow
I will listen
I will love you
All of my days

I will sing to (You are Lord of Lords)
And worship (You are King of Kings)
The King who (You are mighty God)
is worthy (Lord of Everything)
I will love and (You're Emanuel)
adore Him (You're the Great I Am)
And I will bow (You're the Prince of Peace)
down before Him (Who is the Lamb)
and I will sing to (You're the saving God)
and worship (You're my saving Grace)
the King who (You will reign forever)
is worthy (You are Ancient of days)
And I will love and (You are Alpha, Omega,)
adore him (Beginning, and End)
And I will bow down (You're my savior, Messiah)
before Him (Redeemer and Friend)

You’re my prince of peace
And I will live my life for You...

2006-06-14T16:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, my mom brought me and my gu jie to this chinese restaurant for lunch. Pretty boring. And we had ohni for dessert. Not exactly my stuff. So I did what any normal kid would do, wham! Mommy, you can have it. *smirks* Oh then, we spent abt 20min to figure out how to get the church from there. Whao! Bus, train, bus. So by the time I reached there, my head hurt! Sigh.

Oh wells, guess the snacks ben creeping up on me. My temp is currently 38.1 degrees. I feel hot. I feel cold. And I can't think.

2006-06-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

Yay!!! Today, we went to Malaysia(like again), but it was great! Bought loads of stuff to eat...yummy! But wells, the meals there were absolutely disgusting! Lets' see, glooey "shark fin" soup, overfried fish with sunken eyeballs, half-a-tasteless chicken broth, chinese tea suspected to have chlorine as a consituent... ...and the list goes on. Yep! So shan't dwell on it.

The weeks been fine, just a little irritated here and there with some who never seem to learn and possess an initiative level of absolutely ZERO! Plus the miserable fact that my bro's entered ARMY! Arrgh!!! And I couldn't send him off! Sigh...it's been getting boring around here, especially when I'm not typically inclined towards entertaining young brats like my cousin.

Okok. At least June is here! I love June! I'm gonna be a potato couch!

2006-04-06T16:54:00.000+08:00

Wells, been such a long time...

And you know time will always find a way,
To let your heart decide...
It's True..

Anyways, months after month, days after days, and our term in the office has finally came to an end. Thank you Kai Qi for the stuff dog...really cute!

While things change, people change. I'd say I've learnt countless things about dealing with people and stuff, I've grasped the ability to differentiate (not like A'math though) the difference between wisdom and nonsense, and when the person is all but taking the credit. Yep.

While it's good to heed what others say and comment about some things, I personally think it's typically important to not let every single thing they have to say into consideration, especially if it comes from a person who is childish, ignorant of everything but him or herself and does not do what he or she teaches. Yep. In fact, I kinda sypathise with these people who only know how to rebuke others and think they themselves as perfect beings. Because they don't know what humility is. Because they don't know what learning is. Because they don't know what love is. And because NO ONE taught them these things...

Anyways, the days of I've spent in choir will always be in my heart. I have committed to the best of my ability. May choir soar to greater heights in the near future. (",)

2006-03-14T17:54:00.000+08:00

Yay! 28 more days left...

Let's see, yesterday's party was exhilarating! And of course, that marks an end to another major event for the year. After yesterday, I guess all my efforts to plan it was worth it afterall.

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0650-0730 : reach sch. met liling, took some pics. filled water bombs with pei pei till all my fingers wrinkled
0735-0850 : prepare for lit day, took some more pics, screams! I love my class, dude!
0900-1140 : lit lecture (something abt politcal and social issues in erms...1951? Can't rmb!), persuaded Jen Hui dear to go for class outing, on the verge of falling asleep..zzz
1145-1240 : pack up and off to lunch at mobile
1300-1400 : physics lecture (okay, i so wasn't paying attention)
1400 : Let the party BEGIN!
1400-1500 : Fetch the some guys all the way from the PAT to the foyer and back to the PAT again. Of course, blushing cheeks from our girls..you see, we didn't tell them the St. Gabs ppl were coming and let's just say, it was a pleasant surprise!
1500-1800 : Play lot's of lame games which surprise surprise, was rather well-recieved PLUS water bombs!!!! Okay, guess NO one, i repeat, NO ONE hesitated to aim their bombs at me...wells, you can imagine... conclusion, screaming doesn't work in such occasions! Just RUN!
1800-1830 : Pack up
1830 : waited for pei pei, chat and chat
1840-1705 : Go home, bath, dry hair and off to SWENSENS!
1730 : Dinner at Swensens with St. Gabs and my darling choir mates...laugh* we had such fun!
1730-1840 : Lick ice-cream, give prizes and bye bye!
1840-1900 : Shop around, met some people again, say byes! And home sweet home!

Gail and Rebecca ABOUT to pose for me

Melanie, Jia Ling, Theresa and Melissa dear singing a song for ME!

busy people contest in colouring...haha..back to K1
and in 1st place, we have... 4 gals and 1 guy!

Rachie and I as 100 plus endorsers... CHEESE!

water bombs time!

Haha...yep! That's summarises just about all the fun we had (",)

2006-03-11T09:50:00.000+08:00

For those interested to understand what a Cartesian diver is, please go to http://hyperphysics.phy-astr.gsu.edu/hbase/pbuoy3.html and I hope this answers your question. Yep.

Another week's came by and gone. The meeting at Starbucks last Monday was, in simple terms, a big headache. I was super exhuasted just explaining that things don't work out to some irritating people who 'lack tact' (haha..quoted from AEOTP) and wells, common sense. Oh nevermind, we'll just see how things turn out on Monday.

Actually, I don't really know why, but I'm typically more excited about Literature day than I think anyone would be..it all started when I first spelled 'literature' wrongly on my file in sec one...haha...guess it's because I'd say our efforts during the holidays weren't wasted and I was deeply encouraged by Mrs Rupa. She sure was impressed with our project *smiles* when she requested to keep our work after Lit day's over..but I was wondering if she can NOT do that? But anyways, I think the five of us - Kellie, Liling, Alyssa Laurel and ME made a great team, yay! Thanks people, you were ne of the most cooperatively bunch of people I've ever worked with.

Anyways, I didn't know my body was so so weak after running my FIRST mass run since the beginning of school last week. Whao! 2.4km became a killer so suddenly. I was practially on the verge of collapsing from the 1.8km mark onwards. Arrgh! So three fingers up, everybody! One, Two Three...I solemnly promise to place mass run as my first priority, above all my morning duties and tasks (from term 2 onwards though). Good.

Right, and now for the benefit of those who were unfortunatly unable to attend our choir cum band combine perfrmance, these pictures are for u!

2006-03-05T13:59:00.000+08:00

Ever since the RI investiture, I must confess, I was absoluetly fascinated with the Cartesian Diver idea. And guess what? After countless of try-and-error and hours in the toilet, (and forcing my mom to finish a 1.5litre mineral bottle at one go), I did it!!! Yay!!! It was so cool trying to figure out the right proportion of air and water because the density matters. Yep! But then again, when I showed my brother my sucessful operation, he was like, "Ya...erms..good job" Wells...

Anyways, my entire throng of relatives are coming over to erm...celebrate my brother's return, I know, it's kinda late but we always have this kind of meetings so we stay close to each other. Yep!

That's all for now...not much to talk about. Haha..JIA YOU ppl for chinese...and cheers cindyy, let's all aim for the Stars! Smile always! (",)

2006-02-23T12:39:00.000+08:00

Seems like it's been so long since i wrote something, or rather had the time to write some crap down. Anyways, I guess I had been really emotionally unstable the last couple of weeks because so so many things started cropping up at once. So thanks EOTS! Your words of encouragement always came in handy....Yay! At least we did well for last Saturday's performance...then again, maybe there's nothing to be glad about.

Let me share a interesting story with whomever is interested to listen:

Person A likes person B. Person A was so desperate, person A added person B to the friendster thingy (I seriously don't know how it works..but well..) to get to know person B better. And what do u know, person B is ALSO very desperate and got to know person A. Under normal conditions and being not involved with this weird relationship between this 2 persons, I wouldn't have cared more about them..but I needed to meet up with person B to organize an upcoming event.. and guess what? Person B asked if he can bring person A along on the day of the meeting. And I was like, "WHAO! You are scheduled to meet me and a few others, but meanwhile, you two have progressed so far, you also promised to have a date with her at the same time?!" Worst still when person A is NOT supposed to be aware of this event because she's supposed to be a participator OF the event and this event was to be a surprise.

Sometimes I really can't understand why people cannot be professional and more impartial in handling matters. Or is it because I'm becoming more unforgiving and hard on others? I mean, when it comes to organizing things and stuff, I expect (ok, I know it sounds crude) one not to mix matters of the heart and work to-gether! And it seems, a lot of times, this doesn't happen. You know, we may have disagreements but when we are required to work together to bring something about, shouldn't we learn to put them aside? Fortunately, or maybe unfortunately, this time's not that we have disagreements! It's just that person B can't distinguish the difference between being responsible and having a lovey dovey relationship with another person. Sigh!

With the addition of upcoming common test papers plus duties and pressure that we are expected to do well, I think everything's coming along too strongly...

Ok, then again, but I guess this kind of stuff is just part and puzzle of a typical student. It's this kind of challenges you face that makes you grow and form the climax of your life. Else, life will just be a straight line, with no frequency and at the end of it all, you feel that you were just a passing soul of this world and led a absolutely un-meaningful time. Yep!

ARRgh! I made so so so many careless mistakes for physics!

2006-02-11T19:01:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! Yesterday was the happiest day I've spent since Primary 3 lo!!! I've gotten back my Chinese O level results. And haha..didn't really believe it, so I checked 3 times. My form teacher told us all of us got the same, and I was like 'Are you sure? Did you just check the scholars?' So I got my mom to double with the GO, and still I didn't believe her cause I tot she might have checked wrongly. Finally, today I went back to school again and made sure I saw it for myself. SO I'm really glad now and confirmed. YES!!!

Anyways, Ms Jennifer Tham was so so so sweet and nice yesterday. Oh! I wouldn't have known what to do without her and just break down back stage. Guess what? Just 10minutes, I reapeat 10minutes!! before the concert, Pei Hua and I went to look for an irritating person who promised us she would get the flowers for us! But being a spoiler of things and in attempt to spite choir to make us look bad, she said she FORGOT!!! Nono, in fact, she didn't even apologize and blamed her girls saying there was a miscommunication thingy?!! And to think we believe her? Dude, just get out of my way!

Fortunately, Ms Tham was there. And she hugged me 4 times to stop me from shivering. If not because it would ruin my make-up, I would have cried just on the spot! It just got too bad, Pei Hua and I hid ourselves in a room to chill before returning to report the news again. Can you imagine the shock and apprehension so lst minute when we've been spending hours planning and arranging this?!

Wells, I'm glad it's over. PH was flirting with the guys la! Haha...exchanging handphone numbers with their president and vice was such a tedious affair...

Oh must credit Liling for that wonderful large cookie. I love it! And Yokes for that chocs. I'm goona enjoy it after deprving myself of chocs. for so so long. Thanks!!

OKies, gtg. Smile everybody! For Dawn and for our Father!

2006-02-05T15:45:00.000+08:00

Well, this week's been really hectic. Let me teach you something math-y: BBQ on friday + choir and comm. meeting till 4pm on Saturday = NO WORK DONE!!

Anyway, choir meeting was at Marche and Miss Seow gave us a generous subsidy cum treat because there were so many of us, but well, she's really nice. The concert's coming up so soon and more tests, more stuff to do and arrange. Arrrgh! So if you really do sympathise with my plight, just make sure you carry your phones in your hands during the concert and memorise the ambulance number so that if I just collapse on stage from exhaustion, I know I'll end up in the right place...okok...breathe in, breathe out..whoosh.

Tomorrow got Cheena test and laoshi hasn't been coming because she had a throat operation..oh man...I hope she comes back soon. I miss her. I think we all do.

2006-02-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! Today we had council BBQ!!! It was so romantic and FUN!!! More pictures will be uploaded at a later date.

Haha..we played double wacko and guess what, everybody kept calling my NAME!!! Wah!!! Not fair! I know it's short but still...they were all scheming to get me to do forfeit loh....Anyway, exco dressed as the nine little dwarves...haha...but I shaved my beard because it got too hot. And Liling was like a cross between Mulan and a Sword fighter..haha. You see, people, the theme was fairytale...lala...and with Carol playing the old yet ever memorable Disney songs on the radio, I just felt like dancing. We only left school at 8pm. Then surprise surprise, my cousin came to pick me up instead of my dad...aww...so sweet.

I guess it was really a pleasing sight to have watched those young ones who were once under my tender care grow and bond together through this event. All this while, I was trying to establish a good relationship with each and everyone of them because I never wanted them to think me as somebody of superior authority but someone they can confide in and joke with. Yep. So it delighted me when I see them transform into young pretty girls, all ready to serve the student body as I vaguely did, in the near future. Yep.

Ok, so tomorrow will be full dress rehearsal... Then to Marche for choir exco meeting. Sigh...we have a lot to settle.

2006-01-21T16:58:00.000+08:00

Well, this week's been fine, coping with my sprained ankle and stuff.

Today we had combined choir with St. Gab's and the Crez Band. I can see the moon. I can see the stars. I can see the a-li-ens, sitting down on mars...haha..that's my favourite part! Maybe we should like hold wands and point it at the audience, "Blast Off! Blast Off!" Omg...

Anyway, I guess as we grow older in life, we tend to form more expectations of life...To me, a person's who respectable is someone who is sensitive, compassionate and impartial. It's just preferance ok, so friends, don't be mistaken. I mean, it's true when you say you began to realise that the world does not revolve around you as you grow older. I've got a baby cousin who thinks that she owns the world and made anything she fancies hers, including my stuff. So for example when I wanted my book back, I had to like 'beg', "Can you lend me this book?" Chi! What is world coming dude? Actually that's ok with me la cause afterall, she's just a toddler. But sometimes, it kinda irked me when people get so ego. Ok. Not saying you shouldn't have confidence in yourself and love yourself, but when one overdoes it, it gets on my me nerrrr-ves.

So lets' get to the point. I was typically irritated when mo mo ren sorta commanded me to do something this week. ARrggh!! And I had to bend down, leaning on the other un-injured foot just to help her. (Ok, honestly, I don't exactly like people to command me to do something unless in an anomly situation like someone's in crisis and of course saving the person comes before anything.) And well, what was worse was when the mo mo ren did that in the presence of a teacher and on the next day, when she needed my help in a math question, it was with a sweet, somewhat unconfident tone. Chi! Since we learnt metaphors, I'll say what this person did was like practically licking the boots of another...get the idea? I've practically lost all my respect my her. What irony! Oh well, life's like that...

Ok, unhappy stuff aside...pineapple tarts..yummy!!!

2006-01-14T11:03:00.000+08:00

Well well, I guess if something bad hits you, it hit you real bad. Let me recount the whole thing in lieu of practicing for my Composition essay.

"Phee Wee!" THe ball flew into the air and SMACK! (no offence but) With an opponent like our dear Alex, I brought it to my side with an easy trash...grinz. And the very next moment, I crampled onto the floor and my ankle swelled into a somewhat beehive like thing.

Wow! I did it in two sentences. Anyway, thanks to my great friends, I was carried to the canteen for the 'numbing' process. Haha..and this statement suddenly occured to me: "A friend never in need is a friend indeed." Guess I don't make a good friend cos I needed Hash, Kellie and Laurel to help me. Well, I must say, it was a blessing in disguise. Although I hurt badly from the sprain, I was touched by people who cared. All my life, I was just so eager to offer help to others and often thought who would help me when I needed it. Now I finally got the answer.

Yesterday, God showed me the ones who cared besides my family. I cried when I got home because it hurt so badly. And when my cousins called to ask of me, it was so comforting. Because they did it out of love and concern, not out of duty that they were related to me. It's the same with my awesome friends.

I think action speaks louder than words and I must credit this person (she-whom-I-shall-not-name) because she made me feel blessed. I think you know who you are. When you gave me the bao, I was moved to tears and gratitude (and why the heck did you not accept me money?!). You are the first one who really mean it when you said, "Best Friends forever!" Never have I seen such voluntary gestures from anyone else. It offered such security and comfort. You know, I may seem so strong and smiley on the surface but it's friends like you that make my day! So I just want to say I'll treasure our friendship forever and thank you for such kindness I've never experienced before. Thank you!

2006-01-07T16:34:00.000+08:00

Yay! First week of school came and went. New teachers. New seating arrangements. But I think it's great. At least I got to retain my seat. OK, enough of school, gotta get on with life.

Right, so my mom bought Liling and I out for some shooping. I bought shoes and clothes...yeah...guess you can say, shopaholic is on the loose! Oh right, and I'm gonna wear the blouse Liling bought for me for Chinese New Year, so pals out there, look out for it!

Well, yesterday was a memorable day. It reminded me that I've just lost an opportunity I've waited for 4 long years. Sigh... you see folks, I was instructed to usher some guest-of-honor into the hall. And on the way, I also had to bring those people on suspension to join in the ceremony. So very unfortunately, by the time I reached the hall, there was no one from my class whom I could pin on the badge....aii....haha..but what brightened my day was the offers my great classmates proposed to me.

First, it was Yu Jing and Liu Chand who were seating at the back of the class. And when they saw that I was in such a pitiful situation, they touched me by asking me to help them pin theirs on instead. I mean, it may not be a grand thing, but their sincerity really moved me. They were not what you call in Chinese 'xiu shou pang guan', you know where they don't stand there and act as if they pity me, but they really understood my feelings...haha...I love these people!!! I'll never forget them in a million years!

Then, it was but of course, me old and faithful ex-partner, Kellie dear!!! Yay!!! We are gonna have a pin-the-bagde-on ceremony!!! Ahahaah...on Monday right? Auspicious day.

Actuallyu, I kinda feel very blessed and prepared this year in the upcoming Chinese New Year celebration...I'm beginning to feel more like a girl and stuff...yep...

Anyway, in case any of my faithful ah-Don Digest readers are looking forward to my posts, please be informed that it will not be updated so regularly anymore but ben xiao jie is very busy! Thank you and do continue to tune in for more of me...Yay!!! First aniversary of my blog will be grandly celebrated!

2006-01-02T13:57:00.000+08:00

Yay! Yesterday I went to my cousin's church at EXPO, as you can see this ticket is my entry proof! Yep! It was a fantastic event, one I'll never dream of having in my church.

Whew! I mean Wow! It was just cool. Now I understand why so many youngsters are attracted to that place. One of the pastors even entered the halll on an motorbike! Can you imagine that? It's plain HIP! And the music roars so loudly throughout the whole stadium, even my heart started to beat to the rhythm. Cool! Anyway, as a 'student' of our dear Bible Church, so carefully and intellectually equipped with facts, I say this church is an ok and safe church. By that, I mean the teachings and stuff la. They follow the bible quite closely though being a Chrismatic Church. And most people don't speak in tongues. So this really change my perception of such churches. They aren't all scary with all that prophecising thing. Nope, they don't do that and I understand what they say (or maybe I can speak in tongues too??!!! Arrgh!!...haha...no la).

Anyway, It was a 4 hr party thingy and we left when they were about to start their sermon, because one of us got a headache. Haha...

Yay! School's reopening! Oops, rephrase, Bleah! School's reopening. Shan't dwell on it.

Well, been spending last two days packing my room. Now, it's all neat and clean! Yay! Three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for dawnnie! (",)

2005-12-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

A year is going and a new one to began...

THis year's held many memories for me. I am happy and yet sad to bid farewell to this wonderful year I've delegated most of my time doing the last of what I can for the school. There were moments of joy and sadness(specially whenever I recieve my results), facing the common problems of a typical teenager. Friends who brought me both comfort and care, I thank you. Friends who've made me think so much, I thank you too. Somehow, as this year draws to an end, I want to live in this sheltered and forever 15 year old life. I'll never forget the memorable times we've had and treasure them even more because you guys made such awesome pals.

Well, today I finally completed the whole series of FULL HOUSE. Unbelievable right? I would never have imagined myself watching this kind of show just one year back. I guess I was very much a geek...haha...

Yay! Tomorrow I'll be celebrating Christmas again. Oh and I've finally bought my shoes for next year. It's so pretty, I can't wait to wear it. OK, a basic fact of me, the longest pair of shoes I've worn is for two years. That was the first and last time. Shoes are very important and a basic necessity to me. When I was younger it used to be two pairs every year so see, I've learnt to save cost. Smile my friends...

2005-12-27T12:23:00.000+08:00

Ok, let me teach all of you a song in spirit to the festive season : )

A,B,C,D,E,F,G,
H,I,J,K,M,N,O,P,
Q,R,S,T,U,V,
W,X,Y and Z
but No-L, No-L, No-L, No-L...

2005-12-26T16:41:00.000+08:00

Yay! I've read almost everyone's blog and it seems that everyone is blogging about CHRIStMAS! Haha...yay! THis year's Christmas has been a really meaningful one to me. I love to see the smiles on my parents faces when I gave them their share of present and they really like them. But this is also the first Christmas I had to spent withOUT my dear Brother. Sigh(x20) He's like enjoying himself all over England now, London, Cambridge, Scotland, and many more. (Actually, I don't know how to spell the names of those places he's going..haha..so pardon moi.)

Went to watch Narnia the other day! It's was simply SUBERB! The best film I've watched this year, I'm gonna get the CD for it! Right, and as usual, when you go out with Liling, you must expect uninvited attention from others. She screamed so loudly not once but TWICE throughout the whole film lah! Wanna know why? The theatre was so crowded we had no choice but to sit at the very front row, A9 and A10. So the effect was ten times louder...haha

Anyway, today I went down to my aunt's place which is really far. The best part of her place (no offence) is that she has a Golden Retriever called Snow. And even as I'm typing now, I still reek of Snow's BO. Haha..you know how dogs smell, but she's so cute, I forgive her of everything. Snow's really friendly and sensitive. She kept licking me..haha...see how lovable I am!

Now for the delegations for people from church:

Mommy -- thanks for the really advance present CLUEDO
Brother -- thanks for whatever you are gonna give me, I know it's gonna be the whole sack of it! You are my Santa this year.
Daddy -- thanks for pampering me all these years.

Amanda w. -- thanks for those gorgous earrings! I'm gonna wear it!
Alyssa -- thanks for that really interesting book on Bible B.A.B.E.S. You know I'm one of them..haha
Auntie Pat. -- thanks for that lovely purse! Been wanting a new wallet (a more girly one than the present one) for months.
Jemima -- thanks for that nice display item. I've loaced it on my table top.
Yokes -- thanks for that snowflake, a good representation of what my bro's really experiencing now.
Shi -- thanks for the card! You are a great person.

Yes yes! And many more people for their sms and cards and presents, pardon me but there are too many of you to list down. Haha...thanks anyway. I really appreciate it!

dawnnie

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