[A heartbeat]

23/02/06 - :

Seems like it's been so long since i wrote something, or rather had the time to write some crap down. Anyways, I guess I had been really emotionally unstable the last couple of weeks because so so many things started cropping up at once. So thanks EOTS! Your words of encouragement always came in handy....Yay! At least we did well for last Saturday's performance...then again, maybe there's nothing to be glad about.

Let me share a interesting story with whomever is interested to listen:

Person A likes person B. Person A was so desperate, person A added person B to the friendster thingy (I seriously don't know how it works..but well..) to get to know person B better. And what do u know, person B is ALSO very desperate and got to know person A. Under normal conditions and being not involved with this weird relationship between this 2 persons, I wouldn't have cared more about them..but I needed to meet up with person B to organize an upcoming event.. and guess what? Person B asked if he can bring person A along on the day of the meeting. And I was like, "WHAO! You are scheduled to meet me and a few others, but meanwhile, you two have progressed so far, you also promised to have a date with her at the same time?!" Worst still when person A is NOT supposed to be aware of this event because she's supposed to be a participator OF the event and this event was to be a surprise.

Sometimes I really can't understand why people cannot be professional and more impartial in handling matters. Or is it because I'm becoming more unforgiving and hard on others? I mean, when it comes to organizing things and stuff, I expect (ok, I know it sounds crude) one not to mix matters of the heart and work to-gether! And it seems, a lot of times, this doesn't happen. You know, we may have disagreements but when we are required to work together to bring something about, shouldn't we learn to put them aside? Fortunately, or maybe unfortunately, this time's not that we have disagreements! It's just that person B can't distinguish the difference between being responsible and having a lovey dovey relationship with another person. Sigh!

With the addition of upcoming common test papers plus duties and pressure that we are expected to do well, I think everything's coming along too strongly...

Ok, then again, but I guess this kind of stuff is just part and puzzle of a typical student. It's this kind of challenges you face that makes you grow and form the climax of your life. Else, life will just be a straight line, with no frequency and at the end of it all, you feel that you were just a passing soul of this world and led a absolutely un-meaningful time. Yep!

ARRgh! I made so so so many careless mistakes for physics!

_.a heart beat._ 12:39

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11/02/06 - :

OMG!!! Yesterday was the happiest day I've spent since Primary 3 lo!!! I've gotten back my Chinese O level results. And haha..didn't really believe it, so I checked 3 times. My form teacher told us all of us got the same, and I was like 'Are you sure? Did you just check the scholars?' So I got my mom to double with the GO, and still I didn't believe her cause I tot she might have checked wrongly. Finally, today I went back to school again and made sure I saw it for myself. SO I'm really glad now and confirmed. YES!!!

Anyways, Ms Jennifer Tham was so so so sweet and nice yesterday. Oh! I wouldn't have known what to do without her and just break down back stage. Guess what? Just 10minutes, I reapeat 10minutes!! before the concert, Pei Hua and I went to look for an irritating person who promised us she would get the flowers for us! But being a spoiler of things and in attempt to spite choir to make us look bad, she said she FORGOT!!! Nono, in fact, she didn't even apologize and blamed her girls saying there was a miscommunication thingy?!! And to think we believe her? Dude, just get out of my way!

Fortunately, Ms Tham was there. And she hugged me 4 times to stop me from shivering. If not because it would ruin my make-up, I would have cried just on the spot! It just got too bad, Pei Hua and I hid ourselves in a room to chill before returning to report the news again. Can you imagine the shock and apprehension so lst minute when we've been spending hours planning and arranging this?!

Wells, I'm glad it's over. PH was flirting with the guys la! Haha...exchanging handphone numbers with their president and vice was such a tedious affair...

Oh must credit Liling for that wonderful large cookie. I love it! And Yokes for that chocs. I'm goona enjoy it after deprving myself of chocs. for so so long. Thanks!!

OKies, gtg. Smile everybody! For Dawn and for our Father!

_.a heart beat._ 19:01

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05/02/06 - :

Well, this week's been really hectic. Let me teach you something math-y: BBQ on friday + choir and comm. meeting till 4pm on Saturday = NO WORK DONE!!

Anyway, choir meeting was at Marche and Miss Seow gave us a generous subsidy cum treat because there were so many of us, but well, she's really nice. The concert's coming up so soon and more tests, more stuff to do and arrange. Arrrgh! So if you really do sympathise with my plight, just make sure you carry your phones in your hands during the concert and memorise the ambulance number so that if I just collapse on stage from exhaustion, I know I'll end up in the right place...okok...breathe in, breathe out..whoosh.

Tomorrow got Cheena test and laoshi hasn't been coming because she had a throat operation..oh man...I hope she comes back soon. I miss her. I think we all do.

_.a heart beat._ 15:45

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03/02/06 - :

YAY!!! Today we had council BBQ!!! It was so romantic and FUN!!! More pictures will be uploaded at a later date.

Haha..we played double wacko and guess what, everybody kept calling my NAME!!! Wah!!! Not fair! I know it's short but still...they were all scheming to get me to do forfeit loh....Anyway, exco dressed as the nine little dwarves...haha...but I shaved my beard because it got too hot. And Liling was like a cross between Mulan and a Sword fighter..haha. You see, people, the theme was fairytale...lala...and with Carol playing the old yet ever memorable Disney songs on the radio, I just felt like dancing. We only left school at 8pm. Then surprise surprise, my cousin came to pick me up instead of my dad...aww...so sweet.

I guess it was really a pleasing sight to have watched those young ones who were once under my tender care grow and bond together through this event. All this while, I was trying to establish a good relationship with each and everyone of them because I never wanted them to think me as somebody of superior authority but someone they can confide in and joke with. Yep. So it delighted me when I see them transform into young pretty girls, all ready to serve the student body as I vaguely did, in the near future. Yep.

Ok, so tomorrow will be full dress rehearsal... Then to Marche for choir exco meeting. Sigh...we have a lot to settle.

_.a heart beat._ 22:18

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